Make a list of things you dislike about your life

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I'll start by listing a few things, in no particular order, that I dislike about my life. I dislike the fact that:

01. I'm not sure I have Asperger's Syndrome
02. I dwell on negative memories, and can't make them go away
03. My parents blame me for being the way I am.
04. My job has nothing to do with the subject I studied in college
05. I'm too apathetic to search for a new job.
06. I think I won't do well in future job interviews.
07. I'm not sure I should have gone to college.
08. I make a lot of people feel uncomfortable.
09. Some people avoid me.
10. Some people dislike me.
11. I feel most people don't take me seriously.
12. I am inarticulate in speech.
13. I can't make small talk.
14. Kids teased me in high school.
15. I have paranoid thoughts.
16. I suffer from bouts of depression and anxiety.
17. I have low self-esteem.
18. I am insecure.
19. I don't have goals in life.
20. I am in my mid 20's and still a virgin.
21. I'm not sure I care about losing my virginity, but
22. Some people automatically assume that something is wrong with me since I'm a virgin.
23. I have a hard time reading people.
24. I think most people are either stupid, immature or terribly deluded
25. I doubt my own intelligence
26. I don't have friends (maybe one or two, from the old days)
27. I feel guilty for being the way I am
28. I have never had a girlfriend
29. I'll probably never have a girlfriend
30. I'm unattractive.
31. I'm overweight.
32. I have bad teeth.
33. I have bad skin.
34. My hair is thinning out.
35. I am not too tall.
36. My you-know-what is not as large as I'd like it to be.
37. I suck at playing sports.
38. I suck at playing video games, especially online video games.
39. I like puzzles but I suck at them
40. I have poor short-term memory.
41. I have a hard time processing information.
42. I'm a slow reader.
43. I have an unrealistic desire for acceptance.
44. Sometimes I talk out loud when I am alone.
45. I probably incorrectly numbered some of the elements on this list.
46. I don't have the patience or the intelligence to organize all the things I've listed on this list in a coherent manner.
47. I currently don't have any interesting hobby.
48. My hobbies are short-lived.
49. I worry that some people on this forum won't take me seriously after reading this post.
50. I hate the fact that for some strange reason, I felt the need to compile this list.
51. I have a poor vocabulary.
52. I don't have any talent.
53. I'd like to have 100 items on this list, but can't think of more things to list.
54. The other day some kids laughed at me.
55. I play with paper clips.
56. I stim.
57. I suck at everything I do.
58. I have been accused of being ret*d.
59. I have been accused of being normal.
60. I have been accused of thinking I am a genius.
61. I have been accused of being a genius, but this pisses me off, because the persons who told me I am a genius are clearly not overly intelligent.
62. I'd like to be a genius, but I know I am not one and will never be.
63. I have been accused of being a homosexual. (I am not).
64. I have been accused of being a momma's boy.
65. I have been accused of doing stuff I did not do.
66. I fear one day I'll be accused and charged for a crime I did not commit.
67. Some people think that I think I'm better than they are just because I don't drink alcoholic beverages.
68. I don't like going to parties.
69. I don't like rituals.
70. I don't know how to spend my money.
71. I feel buyer's remorse after I spend money.
72. I feel inferior when I read/hear about people who are more successful than I am.
73. It's midnight, I still need to list 27 more items on this list, and tomorrow I'll probably be too tired to go to work.
74. I'm afraid some people won't like this thread.
75. Maybe I don't have AS; maybe I'm just a loser trying to rationalize his flaws.
76. I didn't learn it was possible I have AS until a few months ago.
77. Some people give me dirty looks.
78. Some people talk to me condescendingly.
79. Some people have snapped at me.
80. I've been accused of having a bad attitude.
81. Some people don't care about me.
82. I don't like my neighborhood.
83. I know I'll never be successful.
84. I failed to add 100 items to this list.
85. I feel uncertainty due to not knowing whether the feeling of wanting to write this list is in some way related to AS or to some other less subtle problem such as being an immature jerk.
86. After typing this list up, I came back to my senses and decided I wasn't going to post it.
87. At the last moment, I changed my mind about this list and decided I was going to post it anyway.



Come up with a similar list about all the things you hate about your life. Trust me, it's therapeutic.

1)I dislike the fact that I am always telling people what to do.
(e.g, "you should turn this list into a graphic novel, and have each item be the title of a short chapter.")
2)I interrupt people, then hate being interrupted.
3)I am chronically disappointed.
4)I act impulsively, then spend useless time rethinking things I cannot change.

sometimes is good to get things off your chest, but next make a list of things you love or that you ARE good at. i'm sure there is something!

1) I have to share a tiny room with my mother.
2) I'll have to work my ass off at a s**t job just to be able to afford some stuff I need.
3) I still get some black holes sometimes... small ones, and sometimes I can't get rid of them and they...get me..
4) My shrink puts me in the smallest time-slots.
5) My psychiatrist won't give me a stimulant!
6) My stuff doesn't fit in my bags, so I'll have to get another one I guess.
7) I can't sleep sometimes... too depressed. Sleep is a nervois-system depressant, which affects everything, the brain included. I sometimes get locked in a nightmare, either really sad or really scary, usually both. SOMTIMES, though... big improvement from before, but when it happens once for a tiny short time it's horrible enough! I used to have these episodes, and the black holes-- worst thing of all, anger, hatred, fear, sadness, devastation, hopelessness, helplessness, loneliness... every bad feeling, name it, that's what the black hole is.
Some people don't know what I mean by black holes. I didn't explain right. As a result, they didn't believe my problem was as bad as it was. I feel resentful because of that, and sad and scared because I don't trust people any more, and sad because damage was caused that's irreversible, thanks to my social anxiety or whatever made me not explain myself properly!
9) It would be a huge risk (to my life) to visit MADDuck, but sometimes I'm so depressed I don't care, I'll take the risk!
10) Username88 has deserted us!
11) I'm overweight.
12) I don't get a lot of Dole money.
13) People give me a hard time sometimes for being on here a lot.
14) I have a sore throat (but I drank a few big cups of tea and now it's better).
15) I'm so desperate for sleep and tired physically that sometimes I just pass out and the black holes come.
16) The depression is still there, but the meds forestalled what it would have been, and will be if I go off the stuff-- a disaster so bad it wouldn't be hidden, but them seeing it wouldn't matter by then, it would be too late! ... It will/would come back, tiny bit by tiny bit, and maybe even accelerate, until once again I have a terrible, horrible depressive episode! I need to halt it, reverse it, or it will continue to accumulate, to compound, to accelerate, until I'm not just a little depressed but have horrible major depression again! I need another anti-dep to add to the Celexa, I think. Maybe I need a stimulant.

1. I live in a ultra-conservative craphole
2. Everybody at my school is a conservative NT
3. Nt women don't want to date me because I am too fat and I don't make enough money
4. Aspie women don't want to date me because I don't live within 50 miles from them
5. I am not sure if I even want to be a geologist anymore
6. The nearest major city to my college is over 100 miles away
7. I am very discouraged
8. Finding people who have the same interests and beliefs as me is nearly impossible because of my geographic location.
9. I am 5-10 years older than the majority of my classmates, which complicates my ability to fit in in college
10. The nearest AS support group is over 100 miles away
11. I am a secular humanist (but not an atheist), but nearly everybody in my town is Southern Baptist

1. i'm overweight
2. I'm not living near One-winged-angel
3. I'm moving
4. I have an as*hole landlord
5. i have so many aches and pains it's not even funny
6. I have bad depression
7. I have to take meds
8. my room is infested with flies
9. i'm lonely as f**k.

1) I was picked on for most of my academic life.
2) My face is repulsive-looking.
3) I have no skills whatsoever in picking up girls.
4) Most of my sexual experiences were with escorts.
5) I have difficulty finding jobs.
6) My childhood was so miserable, I wouldn't wish it on Hitler.
7) My face is repulsive-looking. (yeah, I know I mentioned it twice)
8 ) I get stressed out too easily.
9) The only way I can get a girlfriend is to lower my standards to rock bottom.
10) I'm always at risk of losing friends.

1.

1) Almost every time I go to complain about someone wording something a certain way, or not saying exactly what they mean, I find myself doing the same in a different manner. My thoughts are often tightly held together by things that are unsaid verbally, therefore, I'm expecting others to know how it makes sense, whereas, I get frustrated when others do the same in a different level. Instead of saying meaningless things out of habit or implying things, I say meaningful things (well, to me they are) that sound very random because I'm leaving out pertinent information.

2) I cannot explain what I'm thinking properly 90% of the time, lol.

3) I have not been able to hold a job in over 5 years, and I have 2 kiddos I need to be able to take care of. (I hate getting outside help, but am in a position where it is necessary)

4) I despise people helping me out with seemingly easy things... and get frustrated when I realize I really do need help with most of those things, lol.

5) I cannot read between the lines or body language, so I misinterpret almost everything that is said to me, lol.

6) I can retain information fairly easily, while thinking that I know what I am talking about... until I see it worded differently, or am asked to respond by piecing bits and pieces of what I've learned together in a coherent response. I cannot do it.

7) I cannot do most of what seemingly comes easy to others, but must work 10 times harder to attempt to achieve it... generally just to find out I didn't do it correctly and my efforts are consistently overlooked.

8 ) I will likely never be fully understood by anybody who is close to me, lol... and I will likely never understand them fully.

9) I am oblivious as to what is important and what is not important... meaning my routine is full of stuff that doesn't need to be done, and I know it, but I cannot tolerate not doing these silly things throughout my day, while things I KNOW need to be done just pile up constantly. I'm always trying to play catch up.

10) My responses to something can come a week after it has happened, or after it has been said, lol, after thinking about it non-stop, but by the time it comes to me, nobody cares about it anymore or knows what I'm talking about, lol.

11) I am extremely unorganized.

12) People always say I'm emotionally flat, when I think I'm showing a lot of emotion.

13) lol, my social life mostly consists of people on the Internet... which isn't necessarily a bad thing, but it's not always a good thing when that's all you can pull from when talking with someone in RL and trying to relate.

14) I come across as self-centered a lot of the time, though I have no intentions.

15) When I think I'm being there for someone, I always either come across as completely uncaring/harsh, or overbearing.

16) I have the attention span of a fruit fly.

17) People actually have to ask me if I care about them... that catches up with me from time to time, as I never see where I've left room for the need for that question to be asked.

18) I cannot even schedule my own doctor appointments half of the time, lol... it's pathetic.

19) I'm 27 and still respond with answers like, "I made it all by myself." lol...

20) I am too much of an observer in many situations... I cannot take a firm standpoint in anything, I am almost always looking at things objectively, and am constantly told that I contradict myself. People don't realize there are many perspectives to any situation, and they don't understand how someone could agree with all of them to any extent. It gets tiring at times.

21) I spend too much time thinking about how I should go about solving situations... by the time I find a solution, it doesn't even matter anymore, and I generally was NOT the one that "fixed" anything at all, because I was busy contemplating, lol.

22) I am extremely impatient with things when I expect something to happen a certain way.

23) I throw temper tantrums (rarely these days, but I still do it).

24) I'm detached to an extent from everybody who has ever been in my life. I break away easily from people when I don't see/talk to them for a bit... rarely do I actually miss anyone... I even feel in a lot of situations it seems I am an observer to situations that I'm involved in. I'm definitely in my own little cozy bubble, and others shy away from that... I think what bothers me most about that, is that it doesn't really bother me that much unless I think about it a lot... quite a paradox, really.

25) People, I think, see me as kind of a child still, because I must ask someone what they just said in 5 different ways before I fully understand what I'm being asked to do. I ask about obvious things when trying to strike up a conversation of any sort, I question almost every little thing someone says until I understand, and I need a LOT of direction before I can do anything.

1. i get enough sleep but i am still tired
2. i get scared easily
3. i sleep with the lights on, paying more in electricity
4. i'm an alcoholic
5. i can never make any decisions easily
6. i change my room around everyother day trying to make more room

thats it right now. it changes frequently though

Why are you asking us to bask in negativity and our own failures?

1. I'm too nice
2. I'm too kind
3. I'm too good
4. I'm too smart [for my own good]
5. I'm too good looking for someone who doesn't care (it's a waste on me)
6. I don't believe, nor do I have faith
7. I cannot lie at all
8. I'm far too sensitive
9. I'm far too emotional
10. I'm far too timid
11. I'm far too gentle
12. I'm far too loyal [for my own good]
13. I'm not stubborn enough
14. I'm [really] autistic (more than I like to admit)
15. I'm easy to take advantage of
16. I have too much sympathy
17. I'm too accepting and understanding of people

Oh! #19) This one really gets on my nerves! Will the special someone on Wrong Planet (ie: Tech Support Crisis Line) please fix the digit (I'll spell it: 'EIGHT') so it's not a smiley face?

What is that?

8
8
8
8
8
8
8
8

I'm not smiling, I'm 'eighting!'

Now that's something I hate about my life. Since you asked.