Post an Analogy relating Autism/Aspergers

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Like when you forget a word but its at the tip of your tongue... and you KNOW that you know the word but your mind can't seem to retrieve it from your brain.

Now imagine that 'word' is not a word but your ability to socialize.

Welcome to my life.

like being given a really poorly written roadmap...

except the "directions" are actually the expectations others have of me, and I never can figure out where the final destination is supposed to be, or how any of the turns manage to get anyone there...

It's like being a genius locked in a cage.

It is like having a very expensive top of the line PC. With a huge harddrive and a superfast CPU amazing video card and whatnot, but you are stuck with the RAM of the most basic student systems.

I like all of these.

I've learned that the best response to "How is it that you remember that?"

is

"How is it that you don't?"

If I'm not overloaded or on the spot or freaking out, that is to say if I'm centered at the time, I try to just flip those things so the attention to my weirdness goes away.

"How can you think of all of those?"

"How can you not?"

It's like being in the first rehersal for a stage play and everyone has a script, but my script has pages missing and turned around backwards. I'm constantly trying to figure out what scene the others are on.

A normal person sees reality as a rectangle, but I see things as a tangled ball of yarn.

Might post others later.

I like the cat analogy. It is like being a cat in a world of dogs.

I feel like I'm Spock, and everyone else is McCoy...

It is like having the map, but not the compass 'nor the ability to use it.

It is like being a Japanese man living in a rough black city in America. Where no social protocol is documented systematic. Where they have greater ideals given by God himself, but steel the wheels from your car.

Different frequency. Like I'm an AM radio with a wavelength that does correspond to FM Neurotypicals. Signals do not coincide. Signal to noise ratio is....wrong. I sense what they cannot and they cannot detect.

I miss their socio/verbal interactions in this way too (frequency disconnect).




Another: Neurotypicals are in a secret club with endless mysterious rules and standards. I'm not invited. Inside their 'secret club' they tease me yet use my knowledge for their own selfish gain. They don't care about the Lab Pet and I try so hard.

I'm an adult. Yet I've asked another, whom I might have liked, "But why won't you be my friend?" And I'm crying from frustration...they laugh at me.

It's like my brain speaks a different language. When someone says something to me I have to translate it to my language, think of a response, translate that response back to their language. That's why it takes so long for me to respond.

Here's a particualry bad one, but I thought I'd post it here anyway:

It's like having so much information at the same time that needs to be sorted out. It's overwhelming. It's extremely tiring, and NTs just don't get it because for them, it's all sorted out already.

I often tell people that I have Japanese stereo instructions written in Russian, but using Chinese characters.