Inhibitions

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I noticed, while all people on the spectrum have social difficulties this is not necessarily reflected by the same level of inhibitions.

There are some people on the spectrum seem to have almost no inhibitions at least in some area in their life, and on top of that when things go wrong they have natural resilience which quickly helps to maintain their level of inhibition. Obviously on the extreme level it actually quite dangerous. Inhibitions are naturally there to stop us from harming ourselves. On the other end of the scale you have those that are steadfast avoidant personalities. If they had any assurances in the first place they have no resilience to help them back on their feet.

Of course these are two extreme versions and surely it may vary day to day and specific situations. It just goes to show if you tinker with the frontal lobe you are not going to get the same results each time.

I thought I wouldn’t make it a poll. How would you describe yourself?

I would say I’m more toward the avoidant side. I’ve had brief moments of inhibition and resilience. I’m not where near as avoidant as I have been before. I’m more comfortable is a somewhat superficial social environment with no strings and I can walk away any time.

I feel like I'm on both ends of that spectrum but not at all in the middle. My problem is moderation. There is a subconscious talent among normal people of building up personas and facades and levels of interaction so they can regulate thier personal involvement in a situation. I was never able to build those filters and consequently I focus the entirety of who I am on that situation which is usually overkill for everyone involved. Knowing the manner and intensity with which I often need to interact, I am justifiably scared of myself and tend to avoid "things" about 90% of the time.

When I was in school for example, I was always either the kid who never said a word and was visibly shaken if brought to attention or I was the annoying kid who everyone that just wanted to learn what was on the test hated because I would never stop raising my hand and would always derail the discussion on "interesting" tangents.

i just go through my day without even thinking. i also have executive disfunction, so i think that plays a huge role in why im so wishy washy about where i will live next. once i get a set place, all the ideas about how to get her done crash on me and i remain constaint

Lol I did/do that too. I can't help myself sometimes, even when I'm half panicky. Still this is a great deal different from walking up to someone on the street at random and start chatting to them.

Had any weird or challenging compulsions?

I have this really weird one. Don't laugh About a year and a half ago I came up with this idea that I would buy loads of ping pong balls and put them in a bag. Then go to Battersea park and turn the bag upside down somewhere noticeable like on top the peace pagoda stairs.

I actually went to Battersea park on my own with the bag. I also went round to see the ducks like I always do. I carried my bag with me as a walked around but I didn't release them.

I know what your thinking! I've lost the plot. I guess it would be a really audacious thing to do. See once you let them drop, all the balls bounce off each other and on the floor. It is totally impossible to stop or know the path of each ball.

I have the idea in my head that people would be staring. But somehow I wouldn't be embarrassed, I' just be calm watching them. Then after it over I would try find all the balls and pick them up.

I still have 25 ping pong balls and I don't even play lol

maybe it would be fun watching ducks trying to catch the ping pong balls. i dont think id drop them on stairs , safety risk.

im on the avoidant end of the scale

Just to be clear the duck pond is not near the pagoda.

I wouldn't have dropped them on the stairs while there was people on them, just when they were passing beneath. Anyway it is highly hypothetical lol.

ok ducks chasing ping pong balls = 100% cute

I like ducks. Ducks like Sonic Youth. I like Sonic Youth

squeee

On the topic of weird compulsions:

I once saw a tv show on a bridge they were building in japan and they said they were using enough cable to wrap around the entire planet.

Then I imagined actually tieing a rope or cable around the entire planet.

Then I started laughing hysterically for several days. I decided I was going to do it. I would get rich purely for the purposes of buying the planes and cable neccessary to pull it off. It would be extremely difficult though. You would have to do it in one night with two planes going in seperate directions because no sane person would ever allow you to do it. Also the planes would have to be strong enough to carry all that cable. You would also have to be able to do it without causing unnacceptable damage which would very likely be a dealbreaker. Mostly though it is just an insane notion that for some reason resonated in my weird brain.

Who knows, maybe in twenty years the world will wake up with a rope around it and people will say: "why the hell would someone do that?" and from my jail cell I'll just shrug and say: "I don't know, because it was funny"