Insanely confused about my social actions

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I clarified it as much as I could. It would have been more constructive if you has asked me what you wanted clarified. I don't know why you would even suggest I am an attention speaker when I have many more serious posts than you do.

If you wish to help me, ask what you need clarified. I put as much information as I could in the first post and clarified it as people asked or brought up ideas.

My exact problem as much as I can currently define it:

(Taken from page 1) It is that acting as I normally do alone feels wrong. It feels different than if I act like myself alone and I don't know what it is.

I have no wish to help you.
Best of luck.

Thank you.

Anyways...your problem just sounds like self-consciousness. If you're being ridiculed, then your problem is being aggravated. When you're alone, you're probably less aware of what you're doing, and you don't care as much. Honestly, I wouldn't go crazy trying to look 'normal'. It probably won't be appreciated and isn't worth it, anyway.

It a culture thing, sounds like.

It's fine to pick your nose in the bathroom when no one is watching (where you can wash your hands after...) and another to do it in front of everyone else. You probably have felt the negativity from others about your actions, same reason most people get self conscious or embarrassed if they pass gas in public.

Therefore, you try to conform. You can't "be just you" while out, there is alway a public face and a private face. You wouldn't go to class and lounge in your boxer-briefs (or heaven forbid, tighty-whities ), pick your nose, and pass gas in class, would you?

To an extent, be yourself, but if there is anything you just don't feel comfortable doing in public, don't do it. Of course you're not going to be comfortable doing things that other's ridicule you for, but there is a point where you just have to say, "I won't let other's run my life".

Maybe if you watched yourself in mirror to find out exactly what they are talking about, you could find ways to adapt things that would help you relieve stress and not make you look "weird" to others? (relieving stress in a way that everyone around you is going to pile more stress on you isn't going to work too well.)

I don't know for sure if my advice will help or not, but I thought that perhaps it could. I do agree that you should be yourself, and not conform to the standards of society if you don't want to or if it feels horrible for you to have to sacrifice some part of yourself. (I can certainly relate to feeling that way from my own experience.)

However, if the problem is that you don't know what you may be doing that's causing you problems socially, that's another issue altogether. Are you not sure what's happening to make you appear odd in public? Are there trusted people that you could ask, friends or family, to see what things you might be doing that you could be able to work on and change, if you wanted to? I do not have AS, but I do have a similar problem with seeming odd socially and I have had to do this several times myself. The insights of TRUSTED people can be very helpful, at least in my experience.

Best of luck!

I tend to do alot more stimming when I am alone too, and supress them more when I am in public, we seem to be in a similar situtation. Lately however, I've been letting myself stim more in class at school. I don't think it would be a good idea to supress the stims completely, when I have tried to do that it makes me more anxious. From my experiences it works best to tone them down a bit if they are distracting to those around you to an acceptable level, without getting rid of them completely. Best of luck to you.

I am also confused why I can't "fit in". I don't know what to tell you. Just keep trying and learning about being social. Try not to let people stress you out. Have a "f**k it" attitude.

I have to agree with this. Ridicule is neither an effective nor acceptable teaching technique. If reporting the ridicule with this concern (as opposed to "woe is me") one time does not bring a satisfactory result, start reporting it in writing, each time he ridicules you. Keep copies of the reports. If you are really concerned about retaliation, send additional copies to someone you trust, off campus. Keep in mind that you are also, potentially, protecting other people, in addition to yourself.

Pops

Thre is nothing wrong with what you are feeling. What is happening is you are maturing as an autistic person and becoming more aware of your behaviors and your surroundings.

Use this to your advantage instead of worrying if its wrong to feel this way. Stim at home if you must. But if you are becoming more "aware" you might want to start making yourself not stim at home at least part of the time as a exercise and not just in public. There are those that will say be true to your disability. But there's nothing at all uplifting about stimming in public till you scare the people around you to the point you can't get a job, get bullied in school, can't get a date or make a friend. Stimming and other autistic behavior will keep you from success in life. Be proud of yourself that the veil is being lifted enough that you are becoming embarrassed about stimming. When this happens to you, you can go far. Use it as a learning opportunity. (This is slowly what happened to me when I hit age 25 and now I am only considered mildy Aspie. I used to be non-verbal as a child though.)

Way to go!! This is a good day for you! Good luck!! !!