Ok so last night I had a out of state wedding to go to, i stimmed like crazy, even got on the dance floor made everybody spin me like a ballerina over and over and over again lol, since most of them were drunk they didnt care lol, sometimes nts drunk act like me normal lool, kept my koosh stim toy in purse if i needed it, everybody talked to me in a soft tone voice, very calm and very understanding, what i do places like that is shake everybodys hands, idk y i looove hands, even my own obsessed with openning and closing it haha. Long day but not horrible, came home, slowly had a mini meltdown, guess it was more of an overload. Then quickly bounced back by stimming, but seemed to overstimulate myself and became nonverbal for the rest of the night haha. All I did was giggle, and clap, and flap, and basically if u saw me, I was low functioning lol.
I overstimulate myself all the time, its like my body is on speed, and my mind isnt there anymore, no thoughts going through my mind, nothing, i go back inside my own world and disappear, its a weird/cool feeling, except everybody around me doesnt really like it haha. I'm just overly happy, with no communication at all haha, relied on pecs, not even sign helped me there haha. I ended up passing out over exerting myself by stimming so much haha . Anyways my question is does anybody ever overstimulate themselves, to the point they just wear themselves out, and overstimulate I mean, not sensory overload, its like when you stim so much your "EXTREMELY too happy" and nothing else matters
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