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Hi! Europe calling

I find this board interesting and you in here must be the best expertice you may find in autism spectrum disorders. I’m an borderline typ of case and I have had some trouble over the years to get the right help, so I will try to describe some of my problems and strengths for you, and if I get any feedback from you i would be very glad!

First of all, I’m an people person and my biggest dream is to find me a woman and build a family, but I don’t want to dissapoint my lady I hope you understand, so my biggest issue right now is to shed some light over my limitations and what I can do about them if any.
.I-S-F-P, if this says anyting..
. one to one conversation and understanding is fine
. I’m not literal with words and meaning, more of the opposite would be my problem I guess
. I’m impuslive but still I am able to concentrate
.I have some tics but never in public and just simple like tics, I blink, twist my neck a little and things like that.
. I’m pretty much conservative about my view, I’m open to new ideas and peoples opinions but myself I want my lady to be the best housewife and mother for our kids in the world!
.I don’t like technology, in fact it makes me much distressed and I think it makes people less human sometimes
. When I take IQ tests I have pretty even points of spatial and verbal skills, but I see myself as mostly verbal. The matematical stuff is ok too, but I’m really bad at formulas (or what it is called in english?), I prefer to just account for it in my head, so obviously I’m not good at advanced mathematics when you need formulas.
.I am very easily distressed and sensitive to almost everything around me, I sometimes have trouble in complex situations with much new people and background-sounds on top of that.
.I have some trouble with following dance steps in a group, but I’m real good at soccer and other sports so my overall cordination isn’t that bad at all.
.Sometimes when I feeling low my voice diminish and I become empty, I have trouble to maintain and initiate conversation in some situations
. I best socialise with really spontaneus people and artistic people I have always been like that, but myself I’m not artistic for even a tiny bit
. I did an EQ test at queendom (actually I find out about it from wrongplanet). I scored a bit odd and not consistent between the different kinds of empathy ? =
Ability Component (score 116)
Emotional Insight (score 92)
Emotional Expression (score 126)
Motivation (score 71)
Social Insight and Empathy (score 108)
Recognition of emotions (score 120)
Emotional Integration (score 150)
Emotional Insightfulness (score 147)
Control and Maintenance of Emotions (score 81)

.the doctors don’t know what label they shall put on me if any, but by problems haven’t been especially clear to them either and that is my concern, to be misunderstood for the rest of my life and have nothing to work on just go downhill .. over the years they have discussed adhd, asperger, bipolar(I really can connect with the feelings here..)
.i don’t feel odd, I feel my problems has to do with asperger perhaps in some way, but I cannot relate to the personality in a sense, because i actually often are feeling less autistic like then male NT’s most of the times. I communicate with women better I think.
. as a last note, I really do have problems to the extent, that I have isolated myself for a number of years, I have tried many things but I cannot stand as many impresions as the world offers today. My sensitivity woun’t allow that

Thanks for reading this

If i'm to diffuse i guess i am, please ask me and i explain my best, it would be a great help for me if someone who have the diagnose by herself would have time to reflect a little with me.