was this an aspie thing or did i do it intentionally?

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i was watching a show i love and a girl starting chatting on the phone beside me at the lobby. it was ok, but i noticed it later and it was interfering me my hearing, so i increased the volume and looked at her and increased it again. i was trying to let her know that i was irriated. i didn't notice why she started to talk faster and i noticed that she was talking about me and how i was acting and she was saying that she was talking louder because of me. i was really shocked to my bones when i realized that she was talking about my behavior. i guess i was just shocked because i was getting talked about in a bad way. im not sure if i was intentionally trying to get her to think of me like that and if i did, i would be a bad person. i have frustrations and i thought that i had a bad personality or that i was bad in general some times ago.

i just couldn't stand the fact that she was interfering with something that i was trying to do. i couldn't afford to lose any of the things they said in the show. you could suspect that i can't fish out sounds, but im not sure about that or i was just trying to hear everything they were saying. i actually thought that she would be impressed about how i was so focused on the show because i was right in front of it. i love movies and tv in general and i used to look at tv listings everyday to look for movies and memorize the times and channels of the movies i was interested in.

i also have extremely severe ocd and i feel guilty about so many things in my life. i have depression and anxiety.

She was out of line and trying hard to prove just how big a b***h she is. It looks like she succeeded.

Pops

I guess I can relate to that where I'm focused on something like at school and people around me are talking about their stupid daily life things, and I get so fed up and frustrated with it, I have an outburst where I scream into my arm on my desk and they stop and stare at me. Laugh. And I feel offended because all I wanted them to do was to stop. So I end up sitting there daydreaming in on their conversations because I can't focus feeling extremely upset.

That female was deliberately being a jerk.

She was a pretentious b***h.
Disregard her.

While she was being an obnoxious b***h, and IMHO, you would have been fully within your rights to tell her to "shut the F*ck up", the simplest solution is often the best. Simply get up, and walk away from the situation that is aggravating and/or annoying you. Watch TV in your apartment, and the situation would have been avoided.

It's a better option then getting angry and assaulting the b***h. Assaulting somebody who is being an inconsiderate jerk is not legally justifiable. Yes, you can tell them to "shut the f*ck up", but if they don't, what option is left? Turn the TV up even louder, and get into a pedestrian version of "stoplight stereo wars"? (an informal and immature competition where you try to drown out somebody's annoying music emanating from his vehicle by cranking your music up, which in turn causes him to turn his volume up, and the cycle endlessly continues until you both drive away both pissed off, while accomplishing absolutely nothing). (also see: "Dick Waving Contest", and "Pissing Contest")

don't forget that basic NT order of operations is to talk things out first

I doubt talking would solve anything. I could predict the following series of events:

Guy watching TV: "Excuse me, I'm trying to watch television, would you mind keeping it down?"
Lady on phone: "F*ck off as*hole*
Guy watching TV: "Ma'am, I'm asking you nicely to please keep your conversation to a reasonable sound level. I'm trying to watch television. I was not disturbing you, would you please show some common courtesy and regulate your volume?"
Lady on phone: "It's a free country as*hole, I'll talk as loud as I want to!"
Guy watching TV: "Fine." *walks over to telephone, and depresses latch hook, thus disconnecting the call*
Lady on phone: "You bastard!" *takes a swing at guy who disconnected her call*
Guy watching TV: *blocks the swing, and headbutts the b***h*
Lady on phone: *collapses to the ground, holding her broken nose. Cries and screams.*
Guy watching TV: "I told you to SHUT THE f**k UP!" *kicks her in the face at full force with steel toed boots, breaking her teeth out. Continues assault until victim rendered unconscious*
Guy watching TV: "Whadya gotta say now, b***h?!*
Lady on phone: *lies motionless on floor, bleeding profusely*
Guy watching TV: "That's what I thought!" *gives one last swift kick to side of head, walks away.*


I vote for simply leaving, and avoid a potential charge of involuntary manslaughter, (guaranteed assault in the first degree).

You could have explained your problem to her instead of expecting her to read your thoughts. It is possible that she thought you were increasing the volume to annoy her, and just wanted to explain to the person on the other end why she needed to talk so loudly.

She obviously had no problem talking on the phone with the noise of the TV, and so just assumed that you would have no problem hearing the TV while she was talking on the phone. NTs do that. They can have a conversation with someone while all kinds of noises are happening around them, including other conversations right next to them. They just tune into the noise they want to hear, and somehow tune all the other sounds out. Have you ever noticed a group of NTs out to dinner together? - six different conversations going on, all at the same table . She probably didn't have any idea why you turned the TV up. People like me (with central auditory processing differences) cannot understand what someone is saying if there is other noise in the environment, particularly other people talking. But no one understands this unless I explain it to them.

I would have first made annoyed sounds like 'argh' and cleared my throat and when she continued talking at her annoying volume, then I'd turn the TV up. If she started talking about me, I would just get very angry and confront her about it.