greenblue wrote:
no one can claim to lack faith unless they are either strong philosophical skeptics or perhaps solipsists, even so, I wonder if a human being can actually exist 100% faith free about any aspect.
Faith doesn't work for me, it's not an emotion and it smells like a faulty, man-made construct. I recall being given the idea of faith for the first time at school. I felt that I was never going to be able to blot out my genuine doubts, and thought that probably meant that if there was a god, he'd notice that and I'd not make the grade.
I felt slightly better after hearing the New Testament story of the guys who made a hole in the roof in order to lower their sick friend down to Jesus. As that was said to be a demonstration of faith that earned the healing miracle, I felt that the rule was a little easier - those guys might have had serious reservations about the validity of the whole exercise, just acting out of desperation rather than any great inner certainty of Jesus being a supernatural healer. So I figured there was a chance my honest doubt might be acceptable after all, as long as I acted as if there was a chance of the Bible being right. That seemed like something that I at least could do.
I don't think in terms of faith, I find myself expecting certain things to happen because they've happened before pretty reliably, but beyond that I don't feel able to "know" something will happen. Somebody tried to explain faith as being like waiting for a bus.....but the analogy didn't work for me because I trust the bus in proportion to how reliable it's been in the past, I know that buses do let people down sometimes. I have to live in the assumptive world or I'd never get anything done, but when I look at it all I really believe are probability estimates, and even those are only estimates.
I guess my closest approximation to a "leap of faith" is that I believe there are no deities, just as there are no fairies, there's an outside chance that one is hiding somewhere, but the evidence for that looks very weak, so I have to be practical and ignore it. Even my belief in myself, it's only there because I have to have that or I can't continue. It makes no sense to aviod my biological self-preservation instinct.