Who Else Has Paranoia?

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I feel that everyone is out to harm me [with utter certainty]. That's paranoia.

Just because you're paranoid doesn't mean they're not out to get you.

I often believe that people in the music industry are out to put me down... to defeat me. I haven't got to that stage in music yet of course - I just get this vibe that they will try to prevent me from becoming successful. I also have that general feeling for 2 dimensional as*holes in society too. So yes - I get paranoid.

I get paranoid that my friends don't like me or that something will happen to them and it reallly scares me I have to constantly text them or call them to make sure they are ok and that they haven't fallen out wiv me. Its really hard sometimes coz, I know this is gonna sound terrible and make me alot of enemies on this forum, but the truth is I wish that I was someone else more to the point someone who doesn't have aspergers someone who in my eyes would be normal.

I know its awful saying that but I feel my friends look down on me and they probably don't but I feel that way and I hate feeling like that coz I know it hurts them wen they find out.

I am 19 years old and I feel I shouldn't be feeling this at my age.

I hope I don't sound too pretenstious or stupid or sadistic but I don't know where else to turn

I get paranoid when my own friends don't answer my PMs or when they ignore my questions.

Who said I had paranoia ? Has someone been spying on me ?

To be serious,I used to be paranoid but I seem to have grown out of it.

The two major paranoid thoughts I have:

When I am at college, I feel as if my roommates have a secret pact to kill me so I won't graduate, despite the fact that they both tell me how they dislike each other. They seem to fit the profile (one very cunning, the other rather repressed with a self-mutilation problem) of a pair of college-age thrill killers in 1920's Chicago that I read about this summer.

Oh, and I am also constantly afraid about being a victim of a random Virginia Tech/DC Sniper type shooting, so much so that I carefully pick and choose my seats in the classroom and check the windows of buildings I pass on the street.

I guess I really just don't trust anybody, knowing how irrational and crazy some people I've met are. I also haven't really accomplished anything in my life, nor do I have any meaningful relationships with people I can trust outside my close family, and I feel like my best years are definitely ahead of me. I know the above scenarios are highly improbable, statistically speaking, but that still doesn't stop me from thinking too much, especially when it takes me an hour or more of lying in the dark to get to sleep at night.

My paranoia is caused by the fact that my classmates bully and make sick jokes about me.
So, I am "anticipating" the aggression that will come.
In fact, I have one major paranoia :
I think that my classmates do everything to destroy my life, and even to make me have bad grades.

I always think people are talking about me behind my back or staring at me. I have asked other people whether this is really happening and they say it is just in my head. I suppose it is because I was bullied at school and there they were REALLY talking about me and staring at me!

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I have HFA, ADHD, OCD & Tourette syndrome. I love animals, especially my bunnies and hamster. I skate in a roller derby team (but I'll try not to bite )

I used to get paranoid about my online friends befriending my enemies because I was afraid they'd take their side. Then I decided I didn't care anymore because if they were my true friends, they would confront me about it to get my side of the story or not say anything at all and leave it at that and still talk to me. I'm not going to let my enemies get between me and my friends.


Maybe I had that paranoia for a while because one of my old best friends spread lies about me when I was in 5th grade and they all believed her and it changed how the younger kids on the bus treated me. Before, I used to not care if my friends were friends with people who didn't like me. Sure I'd feel left out but it wouldn't get to me so much it upset me and I'd dwell on it. I remember getting paranoid about this girl whom I thought didn't like me so I get jealous and mad every time she got near this girl I liked who I thought was my friend, not acquaintance. I finally learned that year what she said to me the year before was nothing personal and she is like that to everyone. So I was able to move on and not hold it against her since she is like that to everyone despite me seeing her doing the same behavior to other kids.