2.98 years ago (17th Feb 06, 12pm - 2pm), I saw an educational psychologist who had instructions to asses my cognitive abilities for a specific purpose I cannot mention for legal reasons. She (as I understand) is among the top 10% in London (possibly even the UK), with over 30 years experience in the field of psychology.
She ran a series of tests, and mentioned in her report (and to me at the time) that I manifest symptoms possibly associated with Asperger Syndrome. I had never heard of it, so I set off in search of more information. 2 years of intense, continually updated, study later, I have been 93% certain through self diagnosis. I also took an online 'autism quotient' (AQ) test, and scored 43, which is high, even for an aspie.
I booked an assessment in October, with the aim of official diagnosis. Finally, last Thursday, just 5 days ago, I had that assessment. Two women, rather young in my opinion, spoke to me for 30 minutes, and concluded that there was no diagnosis to make, that I do not have Aspergers.
They offered their reasoning, which to me seems hugely inadequate. From knowledge I have gained along the way, I understand that a lot of the questions they were asking were of little relevance. An example would be them asking about language delays in early childhood. As I'm sure most of us here know, such delays are not associated with Asperger Syndrome.
I left there somewhat bemused, considering I may well have been overjoyed to learn I have no problems, but also somewhat disturbed at not having any reason why I'm always so confused by people. Not to mention the fact that I felt I was more qualified than two professionals!
Instead they said I simply have low self esteem and recommended counseling. But I am not traumatised! I need no help getting over some event (though some events I have come through maybe I should need it).
I may consider looking for a second opinion, but first I need to know if it is a worthwhile endeavour. Why am I so bothered by it? Have I been wrong for the past years, but won't admit it, or is the NHS just useless?
'??? ????? ?? ????' is my official statement on the matter.
Judging by the question marks, Cyrillic characters are not supported. Oh well. I'll try home romaticisation. 'Eta kuram na smekh'
((((hugs))))
~Loving Light~