Cringetastic Memories

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Does anyone else besides me physically cringe when they recall a bad memory?

It's not only memories but possible scenarios that could have or may happen.

Does anyone else have this problem?

Do I ever! Now that I have this diagnosis it dissipates the shame somewhat but the past for me is usually one excruciating painful memory after another.

Yes I do. Usually when I've said or done something embarrassing.

I often wonder if everyone - even the "NT" - does it.

I pretty much cringe at every memory. Sad, but true.

There's the one where it was my first day at work, and I introduced myself to a man who then said, "Yes, I know. I'm the one who interviewed you for 45 minutes last Friday." (That wasn't too bad, in the long run. He's an engineer, and just as bad with faces as I am.)

The one where, at the same job, I pointed out that a poster of a chimpanzee resembled the CEO of the company. Well, it DID! I was told that that was an inappropriate thing to say. (In the Air Force, all we did was compare our "superiors" to various animals. It was expected. My mistake was saying it to the wrong person.)

Or, again at that job, I dressed up for Halloween. Apparently that's done in some kinds of jobs, but not others.

Or the time I told a supervisor that I had seen Billy Idol in concert, and that he had put the microphone down his pants and shouted, "I'm getting an erection!!" Apparently when you are having a casual chat with the boss, you are supposed to draw the line at uttering words like "erection." Again--in the Air Force, that's all anyone ever talked about at work. When the boss was in the room, the conversation was about erections. When he left the room, the conversation was about how much he resembled a hippopotamus. How was I to know the rules were different in civilian life?

There are so many. So many!

All the time. I have to just put them out of mind quickly before thinking about them starts screwing up my mental state. I have to willfully blank my mind and decide not to think about that.

Bad memories still destroy my mind to this day.

I have all sorts of memories that make me cringe. I also play potential scenarios in my head (such as having a car crash) the consume me, and make me cringe as well. I don't worry about the scenarios so much as they feel almost real as played in my mind, so I cringe.

Hey Surn, It is the seconds scenario that you should be careful about. having embarrasing memories is one thing, but obsessing over what happened in the past and replaying those scenarios or worrying about what might happen is soul-destroying.

i do when tactile/olfactory is involve

things keeps happening automatically

i do when tactile/olfactory is involve

things keeps happening automatically

Yes, and I get the urge to hit them out of me.

I do this all the time. I try and forget about those moments, but they always pop back into my head.

I've unfortunately said and done a lot of cringeworthy things.

Constantly. And there's a lot of painful memories to cringe at.

when Horrible memories "plague' my mind, I have to "talk them out loud" of my head. What I do is when I talk them out loud, I always "manipulate the situation and get it to where I wanted to end and go, not the "horrible' way it went, which is why it is called a "horrible memory".

Has anybody found a way to deal with these memories besides of trying to repress them?