What AS trait causes you to suffer the most?

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Sometimes it feels like everyone is looking at me with contempt, hating me for some reason or another. It makes it very difficult to get by because of this. Sometimes I have to struggle just to not have an emotional breakdown in class.

My selective executive function, sometimes I procrastinate and get lazy with things I should be doing (like cleaning my room), however if I can get into the habit of doing something this is nullified, unfortunately I have yet to get into a habit of cleaning my room. On the flipside, my executive function can be excellent if I put my mind and will to it. Basically my executive function is either excellent or mediocre.

I chose the need to have a routine because I have OCD that is attributed to my AS and when I worked I would sometimes spend too much time on little things like doing my hair. Obsessions would be another one because I often am told my parents to stop obssessing over something.

social interaction is the biggest problem for me.

Definitely the latter.


Topic: It depends on your definition of suffering.

I’m as socially inept as an Aspie can be, but the only problem it causes me is when my surroundings reufses to allow me to follow my nature, and be my innate hikikomori self. To me, lack of sociability isn’t a problem.

Sensory is worse, there are sounds I can’t take, and I have visual problems with too much brightness. I have food issues galore, and I’m oversensitive to heat. Though many are worse off than me, though.

Obsessions have never been a problem for me, they make me feel great and are an important source for learning. I enjoy them. My surroundings on the other hand… How can anyone not enjoy reading the fairy tale about the 3 little pigs 365 evenings a year for their 6-year-old, or not enjoy discussing a new little detail of a well discussed theme? People are weird!

Need for routine, or more to the point, unexpected changes freaking me out, is a problem. I always have to know approximately what to expect.

Sometimes my stims annoy people, like my clicking on pens or putting the cap of my asthma medication on and off time and again. Not to mention a sound I loved making as a child! ( A sort of throaty k-sound.)

I have an extreme need to be alone and sometimes I just have to get away from everyone and process things in solitude and relax by myself, which isn’t always equally accepted. If I can’t go, I’ll feel restless, desperate, snappish and my concentration reaches zero. This can at times be a problem.

But IMO these 2 are the biggest problems AS causes me:

1. Black and white thinking. I either love a subject or I hate it, there is no in between with me. (I’m not talking about obsessions here.) It has been a big problem in school, and it will be a big problem in almost any kind of work I can be end up with.

2. If there are noises around me, especially people talking, I am completely unable to focus on what I’m doing. I can’t tune them out at all.

For me it's the sensory stuff. I'm extremely hypersensitive to noise and touch, which often makes going anywhere outside my bedroom very difficult. Hopefully, though, the noise thing will get better soon, because I'm doing something called The Listening Program, which is supposed to help. Speaking of that, I should probably go and listen to today's tracks soon.

My answer to this question has multiple parts. I want a routine, but it has to be mentally stimulating. I have obsessions, but none that seem to get me into a job, or that i can focus enough into. Sensory, I cant handle sun/carlight, and loud and/or sudden sounds, and touch (took me forever just to hug my mother). Socially, I go nuts if i can distinguish more than one conversation, and cant interpret facial expressions/body language.

I would say "other" for me. The worst aspect of my suspected AS is doing stupid, clumsy things. I am functional at work, enjoy my special interests, and have decent social interactions. I am the kind of person who can remember a lot of factual information and do crossword puzzles, but if someone asks me to find something, I sometimes can't see it.

I forgot the third problem. I'm so slow! Whatever I do, I do it slowly, regardless of whether or not I'm good at it. It's simply the way I am. I need time to form sentences, do aritmethics, or whatever. It's not an IQ issue, my IQ is 120, far from genius, but certainly not stupid.

Some of my longer posts here have taken a few hours to write, for instance.