I'm Grieving The Loss Of My Child

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21 Oct 2009, 11:53 pm

I've slept on it, prayed on it, cried about it and thought about it. Its time. I can't take the pain anymore, and I won't be able to take a lifetime of pain without my love, and my daughter. I have lost the only family I have.

I'll never be able to see Kate again, because I broke down when she made false accusations about me. Right now is when I need her the most. Shes the only thing I ever had like family. I love her, I love her daughter and they were pried from my hands.

I would of never done anything to hurt her, NEVER! I would of died for her given the opportunity - and thats what I'm going to do today. She won't have to worry about me anymore, she won't be stressed out anymore and our baby will be healthy.

I love her with all my heart.

Lucky and I are on the way to Kate and I's favorite place where I will die. I won't be alone cause I'll have lucky and I'll also have part of Kate with me.

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22 Oct 2009, 12:17 am

This note I posted on facebook, but I thought I would post it on here as well as you all have done much to try and help me

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First off, if your tagged in this note it means you have done something to help Kate and or I throgh the rought times. Thankyou

I've thought this over, I've prayed about it, cried about it, and slept on it. This is the right thing for Katleyn, our daughter and I. I'm sorry to those this hurts.

I have lost my only family - the love of my life and our daughter Joy. I need my family the most right now, and I need to be there for Kate. I need her so bad right now, the way she used to hold me as I cried meant soo much to me. Right now I need her the most.

I love Katelyn, and I never did those horrible things. I never beat her, I never raped her, I never did any of those things. The flat out truth is Kate liked kinky sex, and her mom found out and she got scared. She even says this to be true now, but no one will listen.

I'm not getting any better, I'm so worried about Kate who pregnant with out daughter. I love Kate so much that I'm willing to die for her. And thats what I'm going to do.

One of the last converations Katelyn and I had was her telling me if I was in too much pain to kill myself and she would understand and know I'm not in pain anymore. Thats what I'm going to do. Kate knows I'm hurting right now, and its stressing her hour and putting our daughter at risk. Its time I quit stressing her out.

Lucky and I are on the way to Kate and I's favorite spot. This way I won't be alone, I'll have my loyal dog, and I'll have part of Kate when I leave this world.

Please pray and watch out for Kate and our daughter.

Zach

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22 Oct 2009, 4:04 am

Zach, we are here for you. Stay in your apartment and keep posting.

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22 Oct 2009, 7:03 am

Zach, please don't do this. Stay home and keep communicating with us.

We know that these are really dark times for you and that you are desperate and in pain. Please know that you are loved. I'm praying for you, that God is with you and that you feel His loving presence. Give Him your pain, let Him carry you now - in this life.

You are a Christian - you know the hope and love that surrounds you. Instead of harming yourself, please, take time to spend with Christ, let yourself lie in his peace and gain the strength that will let you get back up and keep going.

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25 Oct 2009, 1:42 pm

http://www.wrongplanet.net/postp2412569.html#2412569

this link is where Zach/AspieFireMan also bid good bye on August 13th. I don't doubt his pain, but he has garnered concern from people and then stopped posting before.

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25 Oct 2009, 1:44 pm

I don't doubt his pain either, but I did have a childhood friend who threatened suicide on a regular basis. After a while people stopped listening. She did in fact kill herself after an intervention when she promised to get help.

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25 Oct 2009, 1:49 pm

Actually, did it come up on this thread that he's in the hospital? I think they found him through his cell phone's GPS. Anyway you look at it ,he is in trouble emotionally and needs help.

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25 Oct 2009, 5:08 pm

Oh no! I'm so sorry!

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