Are you a homebody?
i have had aggoraphobic episodes when stressed and even now i dont go out alone. i have nor ever had a panic attack then associated it with the shop so avoided going out but i can relate to the feeling unablanced . i have reached up for a tin and knocked it off the shelf because i hadnt judged where it was. felt like my brain and eyes were not working together like they should., and maybe its because i had learnt to look at people when they talked to me quite well by un-focusing and not letting the brain really process what i saw. cant explain it any better than that. but i was looking but not allowing all the information. i couldnt tell you the colour of anyones eyes or if they had a fringe so i was blocking some informtion. when i went out i might have got so used to doing this that when i had a stressful time i automatically was doing this when i was out too. blocking information
i have had aggoraphobic episodes when stressed and even now i dont go out alone. i have nor ever had a panic attack then associated it with the shop so avoided going out but i can relate to the feeling unablanced . i have reached up for a tin and knocked it off the shelf because i hadnt judged where it was. felt like my brain and eyes were not working together like they should., and maybe its because i had learnt to look at people when they talked to me quite well by un-focusing and not letting the brain really process what i saw. cant explain it any better than that. but i was looking but not allowing all the information. i couldnt tell you the colour of anyones eyes or if they had a fringe so i was blocking some informtion. when i went out i might have got so used to doing this that when i had a stressful time i automatically was doing this when i was out too. blocking information
I see what you're saying. Do you think it's possible your eyes don't work together and you are having trouble with depth perception?
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I spend most of my time at home and don't consider myself a homebody. As defined, a homebody is one whose interests center on the home. I know people who lives revolve around their house: cleaning, decorating, rearranging furniture, gardening, perfect lawns, etc. I just live here with the greys and I fix stuff as needed and clean when the piles get too deep.
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Home is where my body is topic
I like my home, and I like trips. But I am always eager to return to my books, computer, writing. My two youngest still live at home. There is a feeling of safety here. I do not like movies--I would rather get a DVD.
I guess home is where my heart is.
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Interesting replies folks. I think I might spend more time at home if I had my own space and enough money to decorate it and make it homey, but I dont have any of those things.
Also, my father is home all the time as he is sick so I cant put on DVDs and movies and do housework while they are on like I used to... not that he is that bad to have around, he can be annoying at times but he leaves me alone for most part.
The worst thing about being here is the fact that they are building next door and there is terrible noise from power tools during the day, and I have hyperacusis.
Being out is stressful too but it is better than the power tools... today I went out, I didnt like walking amongst the people but I found two things quite relaxing, taking the bus, as everyone was facing the front and noone was trying to make eye contact with me and I didnt have to battle the other cars,
and the coffee shop. I also like walking through parks.
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Taking a break.
Sorry to hear about your situation, hope it changes for the better soon.
Also, do you find it hard to read your boyfriend's emotions, given your social abilities have declined? I'd be wary of that happening, as it could affect your relationship. But you know the reason is poor social abilities, and you can compensate by asking him to tell you how he is feeling more often. Don't let him think that you can understand his emotions via non-verbal communication etc. (which you might find hard to read at the moment).
Thank you so much for your compassion.
I'm lucky, because he will usually give me very specific information about how he is feeling and doesn't usually become too taken aback by any questions. However, lately I have been interpreting many of his tones or expressions as anger when they are actually either joking or questions. I'm this way with other people as well. He seems frustrated, but doesn't take it personally because he sees that it's something I'm doing to everyone and not just him. He can't relate to my social problems. He tries to be supportive, but it's very difficult for him.
Well as stated above, a homebody is someone who enjoys what they do on the home, whether it's the lawn or decorating or whatnot. While I definitely prefer to be at home, I care little about my actual surroundings. It's all about my computer, my games, and my study. If I could do that in another place that's dark, private and climate controlled I would. The fact it's my house doesn't really matter. That said, I only leave my house to go to work, drive to occasional fast food places when I don't feel like ordering chinese or pizza, and to hit up Gamestop for a game I can't download off Steam.
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I definitely prefer to be at home. In fact, I rapidly begin to feel unsafe when I venture outside to somewhere where there will be other people besides my family and frieds. I have the constant fear that somebody will attack me entirely unprovoked, or will treat me differently because of me being sometimes slow to form sentences. I only leave the house to visit my local paper shop, appointments, or when I volunteer to come with my mother when she has to go to the local retail park or shopping centre. All other times, I will communicate with my friends online, and will buy items using retail sites instead of going out. I spend much of my time at home in my bedroom, where I know that there is little chance that I will be seen or give anybody else a reason to attack me. I'm a computer hobbyist, and I regularly modify my computer's hardware and help my mother maintain hers; recently, my hard drive became corrupted when an attempt to resize its partitions went drastically wrong.
The only problem is, I am aware of noises outside my room, and can freeze if somebody comes upstairs. I don't like to have what I am doing seen.
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