My boyfriend wants us to go on holiday together to far off places, explore new cities, etc.. He wants us to go to Prague together, which from what I've seen isn't too bad as a place, but it's somewhere new, where I don't have any familiar safe spaces, or connections, and I can't really be me without those things. Does that make sense? The whole idea just seems like a huge pile of stress. It was okay (ish) with my family when I was younger, because they'd deal with all those things, and I just had to cope with a new room to sleep in and no internet for a while. But as an adult, it all sounds like a nightmare for me.
So much change, and stress, and chaos, and new, unfamiliar people and places and customs. I appreciate that there are places out there that are nice, and different, and fascinating, and if I'd been born there, or lived nearby, I'd like them. But on my holidays I tend to just want to stay at Home, usually just in my room. The idea of 'getting away for a change', and that somehow being relaxing and fun, is entirely alien to me.
Does anyone else feel like that? Am I just being crotchety?