FtM transsexual here. I tried to use the lesbian term as an attempt to "connect to my womanhood" (and explain same-sex attractions openly), but I never could connect to lesbian identity or interactions (though I got some cool lesbian/bisexual friends), never could get into feminism (though since college through a close friend I'm seeing the saner sides of feminism). I'd wasted too much time playing a role, keeping secrets, that when I got to college I grew ambivalent about keeping it up, responding casually at the GSA that I could go by "either" pronoun, despite extremely limited understanding of genderqueerness and the fact it didn't apply.
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"There are things you need not know of, though you live and die in vain,
There are souls more sick of pleasure than you are sick of pain"
--G. K. Chesterton, The Aristocrat