Zedition wrote:
I take the good with the bad. I'm doubly disabled, with both AS and Primary Sclerosing Cholangitis (PSC). Here is how they effect my life:
Negatives are:
AS:
I don't make friends
I don't value relationships
I frequently offend people by doing/saying the wrong thing and sometimes lose my job for this
I feel lonely even when I'm around people who feel they are close to me, like my wife and kids
Positives are:
AS:
I see everything different from NT's, so I am able to discover things they won't see - faster than they can
My creativity does not wane with age - I can't stop thinking of all the tangents that flow from ideas
This ^^^^^ pretty much describes it for me as well, except that stress from "pretending" to be something I'm not all of my life has also caused a few physical health problems. I now have severely unpredictable IBS, which makes me sick to my stomach almost every day.
I just try to keep the positive in mind most of the time. It can be hard, but wallowing in the negative just makes me miserable. Somebody once told me to just "Stop it" and that didn't make sense to me at the time, but it really is that simple. Just stop it!
Stop telling yourself your life sucks, and start telling yourself it's worth living. The mind is an odd organ, and believes much, if not all, of what you yourself tell it. People think I'm odd because I talk to myself all the time, but everyone does it. I just do it out loud more than most. Everything we hear and see affects how we think. I found once I started to "feed" my brain, through my own ears, with my own mouth, with positive things, my brain actually began to believe that life did not just plain suck.
The brain is much like a computer.
"Garbage in, garbage out."
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I'm not likely to be around much longer. As before when I first signed up here years ago, I'm finding that after a long hiatus, and after only a few days back on here, I'm spending way too much time here again already. So I'm requesting my account be locked, banned or whatever. It's just time. Until then, well, I dunno...