lionesss wrote:
Sophist wrote:
Emetophobia here too. Which has generalized from just fear of throwing up, to fear of other people throwing up, as well as a fear of gagging (due to the association: you can't really throw up without gagging). This is my oldest and strongest phobia, although thankfully has lessened over the years in that I learned over time it's harder to catch stomach viruses than I used to think. So I'm less OCD about it. My fear of gagging has also generalized to fear of the dentist (I have a sensitive gag reflex and can't go to the dentist without constantly gagging) and swallowing pills.
Emetophobia is very common. I just wrote a book which is now being polished and it describes how the emetophobia affects me.. one of many things in my life that is. I am more phobic of others being sick than I am of myself. Thankfully my kids rarely do it and whenever they do my husband takes care of it. I cannot be around it at all! I even hate it when my dog gets sick!
Ah interesting. I'm more scared of ME throwing up, which has generalized to fear of others throwing up for fear I might catch whatever they have. My phobia began after a brief virus when I was 9. It immediately skyrocketed although thankfully over the years has reduced because I haven't gotten sick since I was 14. For a long time though, the flu season was my hell, every year fearing to be around other kids who were wiping their germs all over everything. Every time a kid came back to school and I knew they had been sick with a stomach virus, I would completely avoid them and if they walked passed me in the halls I would hold my breath. If I walked past a place where some kid had thrown up in the hallway (you know they always put those awful smelling crystals over it until the staff could clean it up) I'd also hold my breath. And I also couldn't stand to be around when one of my animals threw up.
Within a few years it generalized to fear of gagging, fear of diarrhea (because when I was 14 I managed to get it coming out of both ends
), and fear of indigestion. At that point I tended to become rather superstitious and remembered that the night I got sick when I was 14, I had forgotten to brush my teeth. After that point, if I was feeling any indigestion I would make sure to brush my teeth (sort of like knocking on wood) before I went to bed.
After the time I was sick at 14, I started having these "attacks". I don't exactly know what they were, whether they were completely somatic or a combination. But I would frequently feel like my tongue was swelling up and like I was about to gag. This went on for probably a solid year and I would always panic and my mother would have to sit with me and try to calm me. I know these "attacks" really scared her too because she had no idea what was going on other than what I told her. It was a horrible sensation, like my tongue was too big and I had every desire to get it out of my mouth! I ended up losing weight because of it, because I would never want to eat when this happened. And then eventually, around age 15 it just went away.
I'm so grateful that my extreme phobia has reduced in severity over the years. Like I said, I started learning that it's harder to catch a virus than I once thought. Plus, in adults the flu tends to cause respiratory symptoms whereas in kids it can also cause GI upset. So if I catch the flu nowadays, it's just respiratory which I can handle. And also once I moved out at 19 and I had my own animals, I couldn't make my mother clean up the cat vomit so I had to bite the bullet and do it myself. It was hard at first. Truth be told, I'd normally leave it sit for awhile until I could get up the nerve. But it eventually got easier and now I have no troubles cleaning up after the cats.
Even though I'm much calmer about throwing up nowadays, I still don't know how I'll react if I do throw up again in future. It's been so long, almost 14 years. Will I be as panicked as I used to get? No idea. But I have learned one thing: having a full blown panic attack while being sick to one's stomach successfully stops one from being sick, hehe. Apparently, the body can't handle vomiting and utter panic at the same time.