Some people think I'm intelligent. Others think of me as an awkward, oblivious idiot with not an ounce of common sense. Still others are just confused by me, and don't know what to make of me.
It all varies depending on the context/s in which a given individual has observed/ interacted with me. My skills are very uneven, which has been demonstrated both through an IQ test I took back in fifth grade, and through my real life functioning.
Incidentally, I was an an IEP through elementary school, and received services such as resource room as a result. When I was in my last year of elementary school, I was declassified, as I wasn't struggling too much academically, and doing well with some academic tasks/ subjects. Thus, it was determined that my case wasn't worth all the paperwork required to transfer everything over when I transitioned to junior high. The fact that I demonstrated abysmal social, organizational, and motor skills was apparently irrelevant. Thus, my IEP was thrown out, and it was also determined that I should be placed in honors classes.
Once I started attending honors classes, I did well in some subjects, and struggled a great deal in others. I remained a social outcast and favorite target of bullies.
I completed years of education, and was (mostly) successful academically through college and graduate school. I'm considered a reasonably decent writer. I can be quite articulate, and make astute verbal/ written observations about various situations as long as I'm not excessively tired, anxious or overwhelmed. Meanwhile, I can't organize my little studio apartment, tie shoelaces using the standard one loop method, and I often can't figure out what to say to hold up my end of a conversation. These are just a few examples of my highly uneven skills.
Is it any wonder that some people can't figure out whether I'm smart or stupid?
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"And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad./ The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had."