Oh Yellow Banana I read your thread earlier...
Have to say I could relate to it a lot...
Especially these parts
-Have difficulty knowing when to join in a conversation, and when not to. And what to say to join in, or how to approach a group of people who seem to be having an interesting conversation that I would like to join in. And how to start a conversation when I need to talk to somebody about something remains a mystery – usually I just start talking somewhere in the middle of my thoughts when I see them on their own and hope it is a convenient time.
- Difficulty expressing myself especially when talking about me, my thoughts, ideas or emotions; this becomes especially difficult if I recognise that the person/people I am talking to are not following/misinterpreting what I am trying to say because I am not expressing myself clearly. Vicious circle.
- Small talk is difficult, and I don’t see the point of it. I mean, I know and understand the reason for it, but that seems pointless, so I find it difficult. I can usually manage about two small talk phrases before things descend into an uncomfortable silence.
- An inability to get my thoughts out of my mouth (sometimes because there are too many of them) resulting in losing the power to speak - usually in emotional or otherwise stressful circumstances, or when asked direct questions (especially in front of others).
- While I sometimes appear to function well e.g. when working, this takes an exceptional amount of effort and is exhausting.
- It’s difficult for me to change plans unless I plan to be flexible. This is difficult to describe; but there are some places/circumstances/events that I know are likely change that is OK as I can plan for that …
- Obsessive & Intrusive Thoughts: Yup, still have these especially when a social situation has “gone wrong” – I analyse, over analyse, repeat, repeat, repeat, bore the few people I can talk to about it by repeating, repeating, repeating, analysing, analysing, analysing, not sleeping, wish my head would shut up, oh yeah, still obsessing, shut up I want to concentrate on something else, repeat, analyse, repeat, analyse, repeat…
Special Interests: As a child enjoyed watching cars, counting cars that drove pass my window. Looking through the argos catalog and playing various number games. Many others too...