I feel like a burden :( Do you?

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Yes, I think in some ways I am a burden, but it is more due to my Agoraphobic disorder more than my AS disorder. I'm so territied of what people think of me, and I am so terrified to make a mistake, that I just cannot do things on my own. I can catch the bus and go to my volunteer job on my own (because it's part of my routine, and once I'm there I'm OK - and lastly, buses are part of my special interest ).

But I get criticised for this, because I always like somebody to come with me when I go to the shop, or go to the doctors. When I'm in a shop, I always get whoever's with me to pay for my things for me (if I give them the money). I'm just so scared to do it on my own because I'm scared I'll do something stupid, like drop all my money and it'd go rolling all over the place and I have to rush after it trying to grab it, which is so embarrassing. Well, it isn't really, but it is when you're scared of being noticed by lots of strangers. It's almost like stage-fright. And I'm always afraid to go in the doctors on my own, because I hate saying my name at the desk. I always mumble things when I'm talking to strangers, and if I try to say it clearly, I shout - which is not what I want either. Then when I'm waiting in the waiting-room I'm scared I won't hear my name being called, then I'd be sitting there like a lemon and they'll call my name again then everybody looks when you're called out the second time, and then I be afraid to get up in front of lots of pairs of eyes. This is why I always want somebody else with me (usually my mother). Does this count as a burden? Always wanting somebody with you due to serious phobia of people?

I don't feel like a burden.

Yes. I feel like a burden on the planet. I exhale too much carbon dioxide.

Yes, but not because of AS, but because I don't do anything productive. But whatever, that will change come August.

Yes, this had been a downside to discovering AS. I was pretty much oblivious to it before but as I learn more about my own behaviour it's only now that I realise how much of a burden I must have been over the years.

I AM a burden

I felt like a burden most of my life due to physical disabilities, AS & other psychological issues & things that cause me to be extremely dependent. Haven't worked in 3 & a half years(I've been putting in apps but only got one interview during that time) I'm collecting Social Security Disability & my family the freaking conservatives on the news make me feel like I'm a leach sucking on the teat of the American tax payers because I'm too lazy to get a job

oh.. hi.. i really dont have anything to better how certain circumstances made you guys feel.. i wish i do but i could only wish no one wouldnt feel anything like that.. i hope that you and your families and the people around you could work out a way to even out such sad feelings.. anyway, i'm sure there'll be a better day and a better you then..

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"If being in a wrong planet; I think I like your's."
NT, knighted Honorary Aspie for my love for an aspie..

You are not a burden. I am sure your parents love you and want you to be happy. That is all I want for my son with AS.

Yes I feel like this and it's sometimes implied aswell which doesn't really help.
It's hard when you see people your own age who seem to be so sorted.

Sometimes I feel like a burden but most of the time I just feel like a huge disappointment.

I feel like a burden both to my mom, who does everything for me, and to society, because I am dependent upon taxpayers' money for food, healthcare, staffing, etc.

You're kidding me, right? By 'burden,' you mean the feeling that drills into your psyche until you feel a never ending feeling of torment, guilt, and shame? If so, then yes, I truly feel that way at times.
Every time I go out to events such as concerts (I've gone to one,) I can enjoy myself, even throughout the harsh sounds.
But, on the other hand, I get rather aggravated by going on a bus with a whole bunch of people, because the vicious talking about various people, and the talking in general gets me rather agitated, and then I have to use headphones. I am very sensitive to certain foods and can smell really discrete smells, as if they are visible when not.
Moreover, I seem to mess up my senses a lot: I am a writer and do this in my poetry, which is strange for most people around me, as most are NT's. I

When I go to school, I have to bring my headset. It feels wrong when my Zune is dead. Then I end up charging it at the last minute realizing that on the van (that I am not on) will be loud without music to last the whole way. When I go on a bus with a 0% charged Zune, I feel like crying. It is one of my obsessions.
I also had to sleep on with the light on before, but have overcome that for the most part.
I also have a hard time with money because it is hard to organize; it's like my room, I can't organize it either and when I clean, I do not have any room to storage what I am trying to pick up.

Well, in this sense, I could say I feel like a burden at times. That words just screams at me, though.

I feel like a burden to people. For some reason people often treat me as someone in need of help, like I'm some kind of small child that does not know how to help itself. This causes me to feel like I'm a burden to others. Especially my family.

I feel like such a massive burden to my parents. If I wasn't alive, how much more money would they have to spend on themselves? If I had never been born, they'd probably be about £40,000 better off, at least. Probably more, as they wouldn't have needed to extend the house... actually, it doesn't bare thinking about.

I'm a burden because I like attention. But then I try to hide and they want to know more. It's an ongoing cycle of madness!