It's not my fault

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To make it clear I'm talking about people on Wrongplanet with AS/Autism that have gotten to a point in their life that they are truly happy, and have overcome for the most part their disorder that they are able to make friends and date. They give advice on the forums here thinking their way works for everyone. They can't accept the fact that some people can't have friends and-or date. They can't accept that some people born a certain way and there is no hope of happiness for them no matter how hard they try.

That's what I meant when I said this:

AHA!

Okay, now I understand better. Yup. I know where you're coming from now.

I think most of us know that what works for some doesn't necessarily work for all of us. That's why it's called a spectrum, right? We ALL know that, but we all still have Asperger's. That doesn't go away.

Sure, there ARE a lot of people here who have learned to live with it, and some are actually happy with it, but they've still got it. It doesn't go away just because we've accepted it and learned to be happy.

And, BECAUSE it doesn't go away, the core problems with communication and trouble seeing things from other people's points of view, like your own, doesn't entirely disappear either.

So it's not too much of a surprise, if you think about it, that you might get "advice" like that. "Hey! it worked for me, so it'll work for YOU too!"

Happens all the time here, EVEN though we all ought to know better.

Don't let anyone fool you into thinking they've "cured" themselves. They haven't. There is no cure.

I don't know if this helps at all. That kind of thing is not likely to ever stop. It's part of AS. All I can say is try to keep this all in mind and pace yourself. If things get to be too much and you ever do get pissed, prolly time for a break.

To tell the truth,i started being a bit depressed in the last 3 months,but it was not always like that.Ok,i always hanged out with people,some times had friends.But even when i had,i liked being alone and in my own world and i enjoy my own company.I remember when i went to a trip overseas to a friend,we went to places and pubs but i left the pub and wanted to be on the PC and smoking.Sometimes i want friends but many times i enjoy my own company,i like it very much being alone,provided that i survive with goods.

"That was never the case with me. My father was a crackhead and my mom is a schizo so my grandma had to raise me my and sister on just SSI and foodstamps because we were so poor. My house was and is still in such bad condition that we can't use the bathroom because it's rat infested. They're are also holes everywhere and no hot water."

For the house my best advice is to clean it up the best you can and get a job. I worked on a farm when I was 12 for $5 on commission. It took me about 2 hours to fill a bucket with green beans, so thats around $2.50 an hour.....not the best but it helped. I still live in my beat up old house. I took the lower apartment, with my parents living above me. My apartment used to be occupied by drug dealers, and the room I'm in now. (my bedroom) used to have dog crap a foot deep piled up in the center. I worked hard, did the best with what I had, now when people walk in their jaws drop. I fashioned it to look like an asian dojo. It looks nice

"I''ll been called stupid and slow by numerous of people throughout my life. I was in special ed for all of elementary, then i was put in regular classes in 6th grade. Needless to say it was hell. I didn't have any friends, people picked on me because i was slow and looked funny, and I couldn't concentrate on my work during class. I flunked all grades through MS but they kept passing me (probably i was "special") I finally dropped out in HS after repeating the 9th grade.
I've been jumped numerous times, had my stuff stolen, humiliated in front of a large group of people. I've also had piss thown on me a couple times. All by "friends" who I cared for at the time. They picked on me even though they knew I didn't have it all, how cruel is that.
It went on like this until finally I locked myself inside my house to play my video games and anime. at least they won't betray, shun, or make fun of me. I don't go anywhere, and I don't have contact with other people unless I'm chatting online. It's been that way for the past 4 years, and it'll probably be this way for the rest of my life."

I'v always been terrible with school, but just try your best. Im doing better in college though. Much different atmosphere.
Now for the bullies, get big, get tough. I used to get made fun of until people found out it wasn't fat hiding under my baggy shirts. Turns out doing hard manual labor on farms and autoshops pays more than just money. lol As long as your sitting ion your room alone, you should be working out. Iron barbells won't make fun of you.

"I believe that when the body is strong, the mind thinks strong thoughts.
Time spent away from the Iron makes my mind degenerate.
I wallow in a thick depression. My body shuts down my mind.
The Iron is the best antidepressant I have ever found.
There is no better way to fight weakness than with strength.
Once the mind and body have been awakened to their true potential, it's
impossible to turn back.
The Iron never lies to you. You can walk outside and listen to all kinds of talk, get
told that you're a god or a total bastard.
The Iron will always kick you the real deal.
The Iron is the great reference point, the all-knowing perspective giver.
Always there like a beacon in the pitch black.
I have found the Iron to be my greatest friend.
It never freaks out on me, never runs.
Friends may come and go.
But two hundred pounds is always two hundred pounds."
-Henry Rollins

You don't even need money to buy weights to workout. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kDCxH88-9X8

As for people, I'v never given up. I'v always forced my self into social interactions. Most of the time it doesn't pay off, but when it does, it's well worth it.

MR20, life is what you make of it. If you're determined to be unhappy, you're going to stay unhappy. I've been there myself.

None of what I have in my life was easy for me to get. NONE of this came because I was pretty or came from a good family or had superior social skills, or any of the things you listed in your first post. I had to start over a couple of times in school. I've been taken advantage of by people more times and for more reasons than I feel comfortable remembering. I used disability accommodations during college and grad school. I saw (and still see) a psychiatrist for social and emotional issues. I've worked since I was 16. And yes, I've lived in my grandma's basement when I couldn't afford to pay rent anywhere.

Life often sucks. I know it does, and I am not trying to invalidate your experiences. You have lots of good reasons to be angry and depressed. You've got a lot of roadblocks. But if you want your life to get better, you will be able to find some way to make it better. If living on the internet and watching anime is fulfilling, then there's nothing wrong with that! Do what makes you happy, if it makes you happy.

To the people offering me advice tell me:

Who legitimally respects people like me. People who are ugly, slow and uneducated.

No one wants to be seen in public with someone like that. When I go out I get laughed at or stared at all because how I look. People like me are pitied, shunned, and are treated like they can't do anything right.

How many times have I been asked whether I'm slow or in special ed. Also, it seems like I'm always prey for people that like to take advantage of folks because they know I lack the mental capacity to speak up for myself. That one more reason why I locked myself in my house, to stop that from happening.

Also, it seems most people in this thread giving me advice are in college. This goes back to what I said in the OP:

Soooo....

The whole world craps on me, so I might as well crap on myself?

Think about it.

I'm not going to tell you you don't have it harder than anyone else. You probably do. But no matter who you are, or what advantages you were or were not born with, these two truths apply to EVERYONE:

If you try, there there are no guarantees, but if you try consistently, your chances for success improve.

If you don't try at all, you are guaranteed to fail.

Quit quitting on yourself. If you quit on yourself, there's nothing anyone can do to help you.

I'm not that good at any other subjects. I like History though