Somehow I always figured I was only sort of Aspie-ish but not really but reading various sites and taking this test I realize I must be syndromatic after all. It's sort of gratifying and also sort of just weird. I think I'm simply really honest and less 'consciously dulled'. I think most people form a cocoon around themselves in an effort to protect themselves from the various things they find undesirable in the world whereas I've always somehow enjoyed pursuing things that unsettle me.. as long as they don't unsettle me too much, I guess.. I'm not dead, for instance, and I still have all my limbs, etc. I can only kind of explain it.
But yeah it's sort of a relief, it's not that all these people are bad, it's just that they are uh, different, not really ignorant but just, uhhh, unable to understand.. which doesn't make sense to me.. I really think most people are simply deliberately filtering most of the world out because they are afraid, ditto their endless social games to try to get along and not offend anyone, something I tended to do myself until recently because it just makes me too crazy to essentially lie all the time.. Ugh but society in general is all this sort of game, something about not offending people, or .. a bunch of misunderstandings that built up into 'reality'. Mmm. Cycles maybe
Yeah. AS