I definitely have an inner world. Usually I prefer it to the outside world, which tends to not make sense. I zone out a lot, especially when I'm tired or depressed. I could sit around staring into space for hours and be perfectly content. I suspect what I daydream and think when I zone out is quite different from most people's daydreams and thoughts.
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Other times I am literally day dreaming, inventing a story arc with characters in my head with little conscious input.
Yes, exactly! I've been doing this since I was a little kid. Characters and plots just sort of appear in my mind, and the stories unfold on their own. It's like watching a movie in my head, only better. Sometimes the stories and people are completely fictional, but other times I imagine scenarios and conversations that could plausibly happen in my life.
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Basically my world is a constant fixation on details and information, music and sound, words and speech patterns, and books and newspapers. I think this is true for a lot of people, though. I think the difference for me is that I really have to FIGHT not to get sucked in by all these things
Same here. Sometimes I'll see or hear some trivial detail, like the sound of someone's footsteps or the color of a pen, and I'll suddenly get completely absorbed in looking/listening/thinking. This usually lasts just a minute or two, but when I snap out of it I realize I've been blocking out everything else around me. This is a big deal because I can't consciously tune out anything.
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Do you ever go so deep into your own world that it is almost physically painful to come out of it?
Yes, and the more immersed I am the worse it is to get out. It's like I'm still partially there. I become very disoriented and withdrawn. I have trouble concentrating. My social skills deteriorate, my repetitive behaviors and compulsions become stronger, and my sensory issues get even worse. Sometimes I also get headaches or feel depressed. It's kind of like a shut-down, but different. This state can last for hours, especially if nothing in the outside world catches my interest.