bizboy1 wrote:
I have to say, i think that i've come a long way since i was a kid as far as these pictures go, but they're so true. I think the thing that changed me was realising that everyone else had these strange things called emotions, i'd see them just being driven by them, things would happen and it's like this pall would descend over everyone and everyone would be crying and it was nothing i could understand. They'd feel happy or sad and the best thing i could do was just watch and observe.
At best i can feel happy through making other people happy, or i think it makes me feel happy anyway. Maybe it's just that i feel people should be happy and it makes me feel a little complete and not so cold when i see other people smiling, it just makes sense to my logical mind, unhappy is a bad thing to do to people and happy is a good thing, just it's nothing i can feel myself and it's not part of my motivation.
I dunno , i dont really know why it does make me happy to make other people happy though, it's not like i get anything from it truly. Maybe it's just that to reach my emotions i need to do it through a medium, like i have to see them through the way a sad song makes me feel, or the way a smile on someone elses face makes me feel, i think it's like the emotions must be there but they're hard to reach.
It's odd to me that a cold person like myself could actually turn out to be so concerned with other peoples happiness , it still seems weird that things have ended up that way with me when really and truly there's a part of me that realises that i dont give a crap at all. It's just weird that while theres nothing holding me into being a good person, im just like that all the same. Maybe as i said though it's just the logical way to be, be nice to other people and they're nice to you, it's the simplest thing in the world and even if i don't need people to be nice to me, for the small amount of effort needed to make your world a better place it doesn't seem like an inefficient use of time.