People love my handwriting. They always assume I'm a graphic designer or an artist. Which I'm not, by the way, I've got the creative imagination of a petrol pump. They tend to describe my style as italic; whatever it is, I've frankly no idea how they read it, because my Us, Vs, Rs, Ms and Ns all look identical, just up-and-down strokes. But as long as I'm using lined paper to keep it level (I'm completely unable to write straight on unlined paper), it looks attractive even if it's not easy to read.
I decided I was going to have nice handwriting when I was about 10. I'd moved from one primary school, where we had to do lower case printing, to another, where the children had already learned to do joined-up writing. So I was never taught. But I decided I was going to teach myself, and the style I chose initially was my Dad's, which I loved.
Over the next 10 years, my handwriting style changed constantly as I experimented with different styles. If my parents had kept my schoolbooks, I know I wouldn't recognise some of the handwriting as mine at all. I would write certain letters one way, then see them written another, more attractive way, and decide to adopt that style myself. It was as if I built up a handwriting 'personality' by stealing the nice bits of lots of other people's. It's more stable now (I'm on my 50s), but if I see things I wrote, say, 10 years ago, I can still see differences; the style has continued to evolve. I don't think I'll ever have a permanent style.
I voted Yes in this poll, though. Although I have legible handwriting, I can't actually write for more than about a minute at a time. I grip the pen excessively and press down too hard on the paper. I can write a message for someone at work on a Post-It note, and still read it four or five notes further down the stack from the impressions I made on the paper. I failed at school because I could only take notes in the first 10 minutes of the class; I'd write for a minute or so, get cramp, rest for a minute, and then write for another minute. I could go through this cycle a few times, then I'd get a cramp in my hand that just wouldn't release, so I'd have to stop altogether.
Nowadays, I can chair a meeting very effectively, but ask me to minute it and I'm still stuck after 10 minutes. If my manager comes to me with a list of things to do, I – like many AS people – have to write it down in order to remember it. But I'm forever having to ask him to slow down or stop for a moment. I've never admitted to people at work that, although I'm the person to whom everyone sends their drafts for grammar and spelling checks, and for me to rewrite poor sentences, I can't actually write very well at all.
It's been explained to me that it's down to poor fine motor control and lack of awareness of body boundaries. Many people with autism can't tell where their fingers end and the pen starts, which makes control difficult. For someone with these difficulties, gripping a pen and manipulating it to make very precise marks on a piece of paper is incredibly hard work, and pressing down too hard on the paper (which people apparently do to help control the movement of the pen) makes it even more difficult. So this is why I get cramp. If I didn't have nice handwriting I'd probably be able to write for a bit longer, as it wouldn't need so much precision – but it's unlikely that anyone with the level of difficulty I have would ever be able to write legibly for very long. I guess others who have trouble with handwriting have exactly the same issues, it's just that they didn't have the vanity I had as a child about my writing! ![Rolling Eyes :roll:](./images/smilies/icon_rolleyes.gif)