lonelyguy wrote:
I was 24 before being diagnosed by a Hospital that deals with this condition took 5 hours of questions and tests to find out at last i had an answer to why i like this..yrs of SEN help since age 5yrs and interaction problems since age2yrs went through the mental health with severe depression in the begining not knowing what was wrong with me.
As others my age were moving on i was struggling with the basic things in life..learning difficulties in math and stuff and not being able to go into public places without fearof getting bullied..as this was for the most part of my life.
I think people knew i had some problems with comunication so they would avoid me..that continued for most of my life..so shut myself away from people and still find it really hard with interaction it just does not exist for me..i live alone with no friends as i am now 27 i d
o have family but aspergers has robbed me of a future..it still looks bleak no job no friends ..no life thats aspergers for me.
I dont have the education or any skills to offer anyone for a job have not worked for yrs as the social side prevents me from mixing in with people i have tried but each time i fail and end upalmost wanting to end it all as if you cant have a nomal life why live it..i battle every day..trying to hold on for some hope but it never comes the isolation is slowly killing me..staring at four walls when others are living..aspergers if you are not at the high function level can be for some the most awful condition to have ..trapped in your own misery
WHAT A LIFE..sorry people for being so down but thats my LIFE WITH ASPERGERS
You sound so sad and down. I hope you find things get better for you soon. Even if you don't want to be socialising with other people can you not work alongside them and just keep yourself to yourself? Even if you don't communicate with other people it doesn't mean you can't be alongside them just to not feel so alone. Are you on medication? Maybe if you have some anti-anxiety medication you will feel able to deal with being alongside people more. Could you do some online learning to get some new skills, everyone is good at something? Then you will be in a better position to get a job. And not all jobs involve being alongside lots of people, there must be some solitary jobs out there, or jobs with only one or two colleagues. I've learned that no matter how low you go, there is never really anyone there to help you get back up, you have to make yourself pull out of it and fight for what you want.
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DX AS & both daughters on the autistic spectrum