I think I've got a school phobia

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I hate the smell when I enter the school, I hate screaming teens that walks in groups, I hate teachers. I want to blow up the whole school while all people are in it. Feels like I'm in a cage with full of pigs.

School sux Bear with it. Not much else to do. Maybe when you're older you can come up with something that exchanges school.

Are you diagnosed?

You can check my profile to find out.

It seems you are asking for advice in this forum. As opposed to being stand off-ish, you could answer the question of people that are actively trying to help you.

Good luck.

Why does that matter?

I have been to a pig farm once, and the pigs are suffering, that is for sure, but they might not know it, or they do not know of the alternative.

Although I have never had problems with finding a group to hang out with, I have often had the feeling, that hey were stupid pigs, not knowing how banal and boring their behavior was. That is one reason why I mostly stay alone, because I think I have better things to offer my self than others have.

I never really had the feeling, that I wanted to blow up the school (only in the morning, when I had to leave bed). I have always had the feeling, that I had something different to offer, a different way to see life. I am in college now, and I sure do have a lot of different angles to things.

Because, if you have a diagnosis, you fall under the curtain of the americans with disabilities act and can get concessions made by any governmentally run educational run facility... Simply put, (though I am no psychiatric professional) it sounds like over stimulation. If this is an issue in an individual with a diagnosis, the school is boundy (by law) to make arrangements... this can be as simple as allowing head phones or something more extreme.

On a basic level... the reason it matters is diagnosis is your greatest tool in learning to adjust, treatment options and accommodations are made for those of us that have a verified need. If not diagnosed, it is often misconstrued as attention seeking behavior or, worse, misinterpreted as other mental issues.

SO... My question about being diagnosed has a validity in this conversation...

School sucks, it's a very unnatural environment and you'r constantly under close watch of authority figures. You're forced to be around people you don't necessarily like, you can't go to the bathroom without consent of those authority figures, you have to raise your hand in order to speak, you have to eat on their command, you have to learn what they tell you to learn, you have to learn at the speed they tell you to, you're all forced to move by the noise of a bell.

I have a very small bladder and was never allowed to go to the toilet when I had to which gave me anxiety issues involving the whole idea of urination.

I had one specific teacher who bullied me because I didn't obey her commands and I almost ran away from school but they prevented me from getting away and I still have nightmares about that day.

You're not free and it makes total sense that school makes you feel uncomfortable.

I myself dropped out of high school around age 15 after a tragic life with depression and anxiety attacks. I've been semi-free for 3 years and feel better than I ever have.

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tE6ZONL1guA[/youtube]

This video explains it quite thoroughly.

I hated school so much. If I had to go through that again I'd have to be home schooled. If I had to go through all that again with turning 16 and quitting being many years away I think I'd do something extreme either to myself or the other students.

Ohno, another school shooting

I never told my mother or anyone else about this but in sixth grade a kid wanted to sell me a gun. I didn't take them seriously and still don't. They didn't show me it and I think they were going to get it from a catalog or something? I don't think it was a real gun, maybe some kind of bb gun, not one that shoots bullets? I don't know. The idea was tempting though but that was before school shootings were popular.

I think now I'd be best off to beg for home schooling and threaten suicide if I'm refused and attempt it if I'm still refused. I think home schooling would have made a huge difference in my life. I would have learned more at home teaching myself than in school not doing work and being bullied. Then I wouldn't have had to go to family court and get sent away multiple times for truancy.

I think I've got a work phobia.

If I were to go on a rampage, I would never hurt the students, they're in the same boat I am. I faked being home schooled after they wanted to lock me up in mental ward, home schooling just meaning that I learned what I would learn at school at home. I bought all the books and just dropped them in a cupboard and never opened one. I figured that they would never send someone to check on me with the tight federal budget in Belgium so I just spend 3 years doing whatever I wanted to do, mostly spending time on Google and that way I learned more in these 3 years than I did in all the other years combined. I mentioned suicide while meeting psychiatrists just so I would seem really desperate to get out of there, realistically, I would never be able to kill myself. Mentioning suicide might also have been why they wanted to lock me up. But anyway, I'm happy and doing fine.