Have you ever got tired of living?

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I did at the age of 15 during my Grade 9 year in high school. I've come to the realization that high school was very different from what I was expecting it to be and I didn't fit in with my peer group. I also wasn't interested in the latest things. I've decided to be the lone wolf, instead of pretending to be like my peers and pretending to like the music, fads and trends that they liked. I swallowed 15 of my mum's multivitamins. My mum asked me where all her vitamins were going and I told her that I took 15 of them. She asked me why and I told her that I took them to get high.

I've never grown tired of living, because I'm never bored, I'm really self-secure with a good and healthy self-esteem. I'm also preoccupied with my job and my studies...so I don't even think to myself "You know...I'm tired of living" because to me living is just well...living. I don't really get tired of breathing or seeing or smelling or feeling or thinking. I NEVER get tired of feeling and thinking
I lack a social life and that often bothers me. My fiance is still learning about how to deal with my diagnosis...and that bothers me too, but I don't think anything has ever bothered me so much that I got tired of living.