The happiest times of my life have been experiences related to my special interests. When I develop a new intrerest, it's like falling in love. In fact, even better than falling in love ever was to me... If getting a cure means that I would lose this ability, then I do not want to be cured. Life without special interests would kill me.
I wish I could get help with my meltdowns and with other specific symptoms. But I would not want my sense of self to be changed...
This is what I just wrote in another thread, but it fits in better in here:
"Would curing autism mean that I would lose my special interests? That I would never be able to fall in love again with a new obsession (be it a new music or a new topic of interest)?
Would it mean that I would stop having synaesthesia, which helps me a lot with my writing?
Would it mean that I would feel miserable when I'm alone, instead of enjoying loneliness?
Would it mean that I would become shallow and I care more about other people's opinions about me than about the moral principles upon which I base my actions? Would it mean that I would live according to social conventions, rather than according to ethics?
Would I lose my sense of self and turn into another person?
If yes, then, as much as I hate my sensory issues, my sense of inadequacy, my inability to spend too much time with other people and my meltdowns, I don't think I would want to be cured..."
_________________
Probably 75% Aspie, 25% NT... and 100% ADHD
Aspie-quiz results:
Aspie score: 138 of 200 / NT score: 78 of 200 => Very likely an Aspie.