Delusions/paranoid and aspergers

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So im just wondering if any of you deal with this or if its something else.

I'v had paranoid thoughts/delusions ever since i can remember and am wondering if this goes with my AS or if its something else. Most of the time i know im thinking irrationally but that doesnt make the thoughts go away.

Recently had it out with a friend who was on drugs. locking all my doors thinking hes going to come and break into my house/kill me at night. I know its irrational but it wouldnt get out of my head and i kept thinking i was hearing noises outside every so often. I'd wake up the next day and be fine.

or just any random person is going to come kill me at night.

thinking someone is watching me through my window even at 2 AM so i close all the blinds.

Not wanting to look into a mirror at night thinking something would look back.

thinking there was poison in my food, because my mom wanted me to eat so badly.

thinking one of the rooms in my house was evil.

Sometimes random thoughts that aliens were outside my house at night. taking a shower and thinking if i close my eyes and open them again somethings going to be standing infront of me.

and on the very rare occasion ill hear my name being whispered very faintly or think i hear my phone ringing when its not.

I'm sure theres more this is just what comes to the top of my head. Most of the time im perfectly fine but i do get these every so often and its really unpleasant because as i normally know there not real i cant make them go away and they scare the s**t out of me sometimes to where i wont even do certain things.

Yes, it's from sugar. That's why I have to control it. If I eat too much candy, I go completely banana. That's sh***y because I love sweet stuff, but what can I do?

Paranoia isn't part of autism, please see a doctor about this. It could be part of OCD or it could be a separate illness - you need to speak to a professional before this gets even more out of hand.

I dont get anything that extreme. All my paranoia is more related to not being able to tell what people think of me and assuming on the negative side.

Are you sure that you have AS instead of schizotypal personality disorder or something like that?

It sounds to me like schizophrenia or something similar. You need to get checked. Now. People with schizophrenia normally have a severe mental break around age 25. You need to get it under control before that happens. Once that happens, it becomes much more difficult to manage.

Doesn't sound like anything on the autism spectrum.

its not an everyday thing thou.. thats why i feel like its not so bad. sometimes ill go weeks without anything like it happening.

Also i was thinking i might have schizotypal but ive had all the AS symptoms since i was very young.

Symptoms of AS and StPD are very similar (social isolation, eccentric behavior... I think the main difference is the "bizarre ideas" in StPD vs. the "narrow interests" in AS) and can be easily mixed (however, this confusion is more expectable when it is a third person doing the diagnosis insted of the person herself)

i'm not diagnosed with anything just yet, but i have paranoia too and always have.
last night there was a storm (but i didn't know it) and i woke up and saw this bright flash of light in my window. i thought there was a person out there shining a light in my window. i sleep with knives, and i oftentimes have to leave the light on because i will be thinking someone is out there.

if i let the dog out and she doesn't come back in, i will think a serial killer is out there and they killed the dog (to shut her up) and they're gonna kill me next.

Sound like you have something else going on besides AS. It doesn't sound like any normal paranoia people have.

The kind of paranoia I may get is that I scared someone off online and said something wrong, or when I hear bad things about a person, I then end up not wanting to ever want anything to do with them because they could do the same to me as they do to other people. I tend to think the worst that could happen because I am afraid of surprises so I try to have things be predictable so if I am prepared for it, I will be able to handle it better. I also refuse to keep my hopes up for things because of the what ifs. I have been told this is all anxiety. I wonder if OCD has anything to do with this because of the paranoia and the what ifs a people with OCD will tend to worry and keep on thinking about it being unable to not ever think about it. Autism may have something to do with it too because of change and surprises I am afraid of and lot of us hate those so if we keep ourselves prepared for them and think of things that can happen, we will be expecting them when they do happen and handle them better. Plus the worrier trait runs in my mom's side of the family so she thinks I may have inherited that. They always think of the worst that could happen but they don't obsess about it like I do. My mom used to do it too and my dad taught her that worrying is a waste o time of energy because why worry about something if there is nothing you can do about it. I know I could worry about my son ending up being badly autistic because I have heard of regressive autism and how children are fine and developing normally until they reach two and half years of age and start losing their normal skills like eye contact and quit responding to their name or stop paying attention to people, start spinning wheels on cars instead of playing with them, etc but I am not worried about that. In fact I have seen NT parents online out there worrying about it so they go online and ask if their kid is autistic and they list traits that are actually normal or they are freaking out over one thing they are doing such as hand flapping or that their kid doesn't always look at them or respond to their name. A baby will get over focused in their activity they would not want to really want to respond or come to you but just as long as they still look at you and come to you when you call them, why worry? And I am the one with anxiety and OCD? What about those mothers out there worrying about their kids having autism when they are probably fine? You have to have more than hand flapping to have autism or more than one or two things to have autism. Same as if a kid has a speech delay or is slow at developing it and that is all they have, not autism.

But my paranoia is nothing like yours.

I think it can just be aspergers. i had the same exact thing i was very parnoid,depressed had hallucinattions,headaches etc. i was losing ym mind in high school.
then i met my therapist and psychiatrist.my psychiatrist just told me i had bad anxiety thats it and high school /puberty /or just groing older caused me to stress more. i am on a very low dose half the smallest amount of abilify nd lexapro and it changed my life. i cant function without it. its like night and day.