ZombieBrideXD wrote:
Before me and my dad heard of Aspergers, a few guidance counsellors thought i was Bipolar, some doctors thought i had bad hearing. I remember i asked my mom "am i autistic and you just never told me?" (i thought Autistic people were not aware they were nonverbal so i thought everyone was hiding it from me, i know now thats not the case.) i thought i was schizophrenic because my grandmother was. My therapist was the only one to say "ive seen these traits in my aspergers patients". What did you think before Aspergers?
I never thought I had a condition at all. I just felt a life of frustration, because I seemed to be a mismatch with so many people, didn't know why people considered me "difficult" because I thought I was an OK person, couldn't understand why things were so stressful, couldn't understand why I seemed to think and approach everything so differently to everyone else.
When I finally read about AS (which was while I was researching possible causes for my eldest child's behaviour) it hit me like a Eureka moment. It was like a sudden dawning that this was me, there was a reason, I wasn't bad or difficult, I had a particular way of being for a clear reason. And it wasn't about blame any more, it wasn't my fault I was like this.
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*Truth fears no trial*
DX AS & both daughters on the autistic spectrum