nerveous about my gf's paper
My gf is a Psych major on her masters degree atm and we usually share school stuff like what we have to do for the week. She had to write a case evaluation paper based off the following case:
We butt heads off and on discussing whether or not she believes my" autism thing". I read this and automatically knew where this paper is headed. her first comment was "it sounds like you". its not like its a major issue anymore between us, really but I reacted violently, inwardly, when it came to the idea of her writing this paper and I am actually very unsure of why my reaction is of nerves and anxiety. Anyone got any thoughts? I am really confused as to how im feeling and why.
I'm a little confused as to the gf situation. Does she not believe in autism? (odd for a psych major) or does she not believe that *you* are autistic? (odd because she knows you and knows about autism)?
In any case, maybe your feelings come from being in a relationship with someone who does not believe you about something so fundamental as your neurology. That's a trust issue. She doesn't have the excuse of not being educated about autism, which makes it even harder to accept. Since you don't know what she is thinking, there's another reason to be uncomfortable. You don't know what she's going to write, and anything she wrotes conceivably reflects on you.
I'd suggest talking to her bout your feelings and concerns, or at least asking her what her's are. It might be helpful to go over the paper with her after it's written to discuss what been written, why, and how (if) it might relate to you.
Best of luck!
She used to think I was just rude and spoiled rather than autistic for a long time. We only really talked about it rationally about two months ago and she does believe me now. As soon as the issue was settled, I dropped the subject entirely and try to avoid talking about it. I think disliking the fact that she si writing this paper is because of this avoidance I have developed about the subject with her.
I just really wonder where this avoidance comes from.