Jasper1 wrote:
Not so much that I'm older, I only really did it in private, and haven't lived in a place with comfortable carpet and such since I've been an adult. Can't do it if the flooring isn't comfortable.
When I was a kid, different story. I spent most of my childhood in my bedroom sitting on the floor listening to music and rocking to it. I had to rock. It was almost involuntary. It was my primary activity when I was at home till I pretty much moved out and could no longer have the privacy I needed to sit and enjoy music. Till my early 20's I'd say.
I pretty much sat there and played my favorite music all day everyday. Sun up to sun down. Sometimes had problems with the neighbors over it. My mom put it up with it to an extent, or maybe she just gave up. I was always told by family that it was strange, but I never gave it up, because that's how I preferred to spend my time, and it was just natural to me. I only felt comfortable doing it in complete privacy because I was told and made aware that it was so strange.
I evenly feel really strange talking about it on here, because it's not something I talk about it. At All. It's like my private secret that I keep from everyone.
Also, when sitting to music I also liked to have the TV on. I liked watching the visuals when I was day dreaming and listening. Sometimes if I liked the show, I'd listen to both. My music would be more like the background music to what I was watching.
I do have to say that as an adult I've never enjoyed music as much as I did when I was a kid since I had to break out of that habit for lack of privacy and whatnot.
When I went out by myself I almost always had a walkman or discman. Would often try to sneak earbuds in my ear in class. Sometimes at work too.
I've also developed a hobby around music that I do well at despite having no knowledge of music theory, and having extreme difficulty trying to teach myself theory when I tried. It's too math like and I don't understand the concept of assigning notes to sounds. I don't have perfect pitch. It's all relative pitch to me.
I generally kept all the facts in memory about pertinent information on the liner notes of all my CD's. Everything from dates, to producers, to musicians etc. Even people they thanked and so on.
I'm not really sure what category this behavior would fall under. Not sure if it's more aspie or a different autistic trait. All I know is it was pretty extreme.
Now that I'm in my 30's, I don't have as much of a draw to music. Definitely not into it like I used to be. Don't care to remember useless facts about it. Sometimes don't even keep track of song titles and whatnot. I'm not into anything so deeply and all engrossing anymore.
I don't mean to hi jack this thread. I realize I wrote a lot and it veers into other things, but I was really hoping to get feedback. I'm really struggling with the severity of this behavior and what it points to in regards to figuring out my possible "aspieness." Was really hoping someone could shed some light on it for me please.