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I don't want to live like a plant, without goal and purpose.
Plants do have a goal- reproduction- and it appears to be all that they think/focus on. Most animals are that way, their entire life cycle is based primarily upon living long enough to produce as many fit offspring as they can and sometimes, to ensure the survival of the offspring until they are old enough to fend for themselves. I think it could be said that this is also true of the majority of humans- the main thing is to produce an heir or two, or to leave one's genetic mark on the world.
I have five kids, so I don't really have room to throw stones in that direction....but perpetuating my genes isn't enough for me. I would rather do something similar with ideas, whether it be art, an essay that makes people attempt to think (sorry, I'm sarcastic today) an invention, scientific discovery, etc etc. Ideas live on long after descendants have expired, and they have more potency and potential.
When I was a child, I used to look around at the world and at social innteractions with amazement and dismay. It seemed as if everything I saw was based on dishonesty and frustratingly indirect methods of getting what they wanted, and concealing what they really thought or felt. I hated it and decided that it was my mission in life to point out the error of their ways, that if they realized that they could be direct and honest, they'd do so, that the world was full of idiots and dolts who only had to be shown a different way.... :sigh:....the idealism of youth..... Now I'm content if they let me alone and give me the freedom to be myself and express who I really am.