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24 Dec 2013, 7:25 pm

It is causing significant social problems in my life.

I do not do drugs..please understand this
I do not break the law or do anything dangerous...please understand this.
Every 4 or so days I have a drink but this is not usual for me...things lately are just very bad, especially socially.
I do not cut or self harm, I do occasionally hit myself on the head when very upset but this is rare, mostly I just rant to myself in private. I may rant loudly, i try not to so that other people don't hear me.
I am not into acts that would cause harm to myself...I am very much into nurturing myself. I eat a sensible diet, exercise, go out regularly.
I do not harm others.
I do sometimes feel suicidal due to my social isolation.

How can I stop being weird. I am attracting drug addicts and people who self harm and these people worry me as they are prone to weird behaviours. I just say odd things...there is a difference between behaving irrationally and saying weird things....

I do nothing that would cause anyone any harm even myself 99^% of the time.

How can I stop being weird so I can stop this...

I just want to meet sane rational people who use logic. this is what is distressing to me..I keep meeting people who are unstable and scary just because I say weird things.

They hurt themselves...and do wreckless stuff that is harmful. They are violent or aggressive..I just hit myself when I am very very overwhelmed by things...sometimes.

I cannot be with these people they seem mentally unstable...i just say weird things and express myself more than I should.

I commit no harm in the real world..I am just quirky, odd..but I know not to do anything that would be dangerous and cause harm.

I cannot be with these people they scare me.

What am I doing that is attracting them? they are into dangerous things...these things worry me.



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24 Dec 2013, 7:38 pm

Do you think I would be better off dead instead of being trapped meeting these deranged people who like to hurt themselves or others?

I am never going to meet sane people because I am weird. Never going to meet people who are sensible and whom look after their health and themselves.Trapped with the irrational for all eternity. Trapped with that belief system. the one where they hate themselves. I dont hate myself, I am ok with making mistakes, I dont mind that I am not perfect, I do not understand those that do. They are weird to me. I do not beat myself up emotionally..i find this illogical. A waste of my time and yet no one will accept this.

i think my life is drawing to an end as I cannot live like this with the insane people anymore just because I am quirky.

They are driving me mad. i will have no sanity left soon...their belief system is horrible. Its awful.

I cannot even go to support services....they cannot help me. their cbt is for people who hate themselves or who beat themselves up...

I just want these people to leave me alone. Stop thinking I am like them or that I can understand them.

There is no one who can help me...no one.

i am trapped alone or with the insane. This is why I am so depressed.

there is no future to try for...none. Just the psychologically dangerous or the irrational......

I feel sick and I want to die because of this.

Why does no sane person want to talk to me....

why
Can on one understand that I dont hate myself..???

that I dont want to hurt myself?

But that I feel my life is too much torture to keep living?

These people torture me...

I just wanted to live, to experience, to understand and yet I can find no one to have a congenial christmas eve with.

Can the insane peope stop torturing me please.
I do not harm myself
I do not do drugs
I do not break the law
I do not hate myself
I do not beat myself up
I do believe I am worthless
I do not want to participate in clearly dangerous behaviour
I do not want to do anything that would harm others

NO choice but to remain alone...no one sane to talk to.



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24 Dec 2013, 7:45 pm

I wil ring the samaritans and I will talk to my therapist

someone has to listen eventually that the insane dangerous people are torturing me.. that because of my quirks the sensible and intelligent wont talk to me but the insane think I am like them...that I am into dangerous stupid irrational activities.

I want someone somewhere to understand I don;t hate myself or want to hurt myself or that I don't beat myself up...that I am psychologically distressed by always attracting people who think I am into wreckless behaviours when I am not.
I do not do drugs
or cut/self harm...why would someone think I was into cutting OMG
I dont' commit any crimes
I wont do anything that could hurt myself such as letting someone choke me
I don't eat a bad diet
I exericse


Why do these people keep doing this..

I am ringing the samaritains now as i need to talk....

I need to know why these insane pepole are attracted to me

The scare me. I am scared, they are irrational

The want to hurt themselves and things...its odd. Dangerous. bizzare.



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24 Dec 2013, 7:50 pm

Why wont anyone believe that some people online ahve been spreading this BS about me and causing me problems.

i dont socialise very well in person due to my shyness/quirkiness. I am not considered irrational by my drs and i have never been in a psychiatric institution or hopitalised.

these pepole online they spread stuff around about me, talk about me, say i suffer from this and that when I do not.....I cannot be friends with some of the people I attract online as a result as I don't understand them, they are irrational and insane.

Can the people on line stop this pleasee....stop posting that i have conditions. It is making insane people who are dangerous and irrational think i am like them and is causing sane people to avoid.

I cannot cope with the insane people who want to do dangerous things.



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24 Dec 2013, 8:02 pm

Try to not be over-dramatic about things and NO being dead is not the answer. Thinking too much about things doesn't help either so bury yourself in things that interest you. Start a journal and write until you pass out. People are weird, we are all weird. Try to embrace it all and just let it be.



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24 Dec 2013, 8:11 pm

For me it isn't so much about quelling my weirdness as learning what I can from such perilous characters. I live in a small city, but it retains all the facets of the big ones, save for the skyscrapers. The more you can accept and read into the things that happen among your crazy friends, the greater the positive impact you can have on yourself as a part of a group rather than an outlier. In my opinion, the most valuable lessons are unnerving and then advantageous. Keep in contact with enough people who do the same and for lack of a better adage, a rising tide lifts all boats.


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24 Dec 2013, 8:16 pm

I just cant be around humans anymore

It's not over dramatising they are dangerous and irrational.

the don't care about their health, they don't want to eat properly or exercise or get enough sleep. the prefer to hate themselves and refuse to look after their bodies.
They want to do drugs all the time and drink alcohol more frequently than i do
They want to do dangerous things like choking and self harm
They are into breaking the law

They think I want to do the same.

I do not.I am sensible even if I am open about my thoughts and feelings on the internet.

They are just thoughts and feelings, i do not act on every thought and feeling i have.
i want a happy life, not one fraught with their kind of drama

I have no choice but to stay alone becaue of these people and they are laughing about it and i know no one believes me and they thikn it is paranoia...it is not. Poeople are nasty to me and keep making out I have conditions I do not have. They follow me around the internet and no one wil believe me that that these sick people are harassing me.

its awful....

They post offensive things about me makign out I am not something I am not..that I suffer from illnesses i have not been disgnosed with and do not have...this causes people who have those illnessses to think I can relate to them. they are insane.

Why will no one believe me.. why? do you thikn that no one gets harassed on the internet. These people have ruined my life as people avoid me due to what they post....the sane ones.

i dont want to be around the mad anymore.....

I am recording these things for my therapist..someone has to stop them, they are sick with their accusations. I live a clean sensible lifestyle. I am not prone to dangerous behaviours and I WANT THESE LUNATICS to stay away from me.

And they are lunatics....they hurt themselves and do wreckless things.

I want them to leave me alone.



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24 Dec 2013, 8:18 pm

murbark wrote:
Try to not be over-dramatic about things and NO being dead is not the answer. Thinking too much about things doesn't help either so bury yourself in things that interest you. Start a journal and write until you pass out. People are weird, we are all weird. Try to embrace it all and just let it be.


why should i be alone forever because of these evil sick bullying people..they are on this site too..posting the same old crap about me that is not true and when I try to speak up I am blamed..it is me that is ill not them...them who harass people. I am missing out on social relaationships because of their sickness and grotesque ways.

they should nto be on this site, they are no austistic...tey are just mentally ill and sick.

How do i know...before they started this s**t i had NORMAL relationships with sane people even withy my quirks. People liked my quirks....

Since they have been posting rubbish about me that is not true I have attacted only insane people I cannot cope with.

i don't know hwo to cope with someone who is violent
I don't know how to cope with someone who does drugs
I don't know how ot cope with someone who is into dangerous activities

So I have no choice but to keep turing these people away (I WILL NOT HAVE THEM AS PART OF MY LIFE) and to remain alone.

So alone I am at nearly 40 becuase of trouble making lying as*holes.



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24 Dec 2013, 8:24 pm

dont for one minute believe that i will welcome anyone into my life just because I don't make friends well. I will not.

if I feel being around them is detrimental to my health I WILL turn them away regardless of how lonely I am.



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24 Dec 2013, 8:51 pm

I was gonna reply to your other thread but you've went and made another. What you are doing now is "weird" because you shouldn't post consecutively and in response to nobody. Me telling you this is also "weird" because I told you in a candid manner. I'm sure there is some sort of social rule I'm disregarding.
Your doctors are probably right about you being too reasonable. People do find logic to be weird, especially if you put logic before being social. I've wondered for a while what exactly makes me weird and I've finally discovered everything that makes me strange (well, I think it's everything). Hopefully you can find your answer to why you're weird as well. I think you have attracted the wrong crowd because you are a weird guy. It isn't fair and it's not your fault. Maybe move away.



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24 Dec 2013, 8:58 pm

You're focussing too much on other people. Just focus on yourself and make the changes you know deep inside that you have to make. There aren't alot of healthy thoughts bouncing around your head right now and you seem to be blaming other people for your misery. It's obvious you are in pain and hurting but you have to take responsibility for your life no matter what perceived slights you think others are doing/have done to you. Work on yourself. It's the only answer.



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24 Dec 2013, 9:03 pm

Don't fret. I'm alone, too. It's not the greatest feeling but I have my health and some food lying around. Things can be worse.



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24 Dec 2013, 9:08 pm

redrobin62 wrote:
Don't fret. I'm alone, too. It's not the greatest feeling but I have my health and some food lying around. Things can be worse.


Me too. Plenty to be grateful for but loneliness can be a devastating condition if it is latent and chronic. People need all kinds of nourishment and not all of it comes from food :)



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24 Dec 2013, 9:26 pm

This is a challenge for me, so I have no good advice...



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24 Dec 2013, 10:24 pm

How do you know what the rest of your life is going to be like? Did someone come from the future and deliver you a book that told what is going to happen on everyday for the rest of your life until you die? If not, then you're scaring yourself with negative predictions about the future that aren't true. I do the same thing. For me it is usually triggered by a social outcome that I did not like or thinking about some upcoming social event that I am nervous about. What event triggered these thoughts that you are having?



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24 Dec 2013, 10:38 pm

Just stop being weird. :p Just kidding.

I already told you what you could try, but you're not interested in trying it and prefer to do as you've always done and get as you've always gotten. Meanwhile, from your posts, I know that like myself you have symptoms of salicylate sensitivity as well as IBS/digestive issues.. yet you're not open to the possibility that your symptoms are being caused by similar digestive issues to those I've been successfully treating in myself. If you're ever more open minded about that being the source of your neurological issues, feel free to get in touch if you'd like any further input.

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