babybird wrote:
I've only just started feeling like this recently after not feeling it for quite a few years.
I think it might be due to me starting a new job and being around new people.
I do like the people who I work with and I know they're ok with me, but I feel really exposed.
I'm not anxious or anything like that, it's just a really weird feeling. I also feel as though they know, but they're not saying anything.
I know that feeling too well. I don't have issues with anxiety really, but when I start a new job, I'm just as you described.
I don't know if you're the same, but I think the reason is that I have learned that different social groups behave in different ways. How I behave depends on the people around me. When you enter a new social group, one you're unfamiliar with, you start to wonder how to behave around these new people, and whether you have come across others like them before.
I felt real alien when I started this one job, where for the first time ever, rather than working with people my age, it was mainly forty year old + mothers, and grandmothers. Obviously it wasn't so bad, as they were all so lovely and nurturing, but as I hadn't faced anything like that before, I felt I struggled to know what to talk to them about.
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