Have you ever suffered from depression?

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Yeah definitely. it wasnt easy being around 17-20 age, and being alone and such. Then i got some medication, which ive mentioned before, but right now the name escapes me. Which made me suicidal which certainly didn help. Kinda scary how medication can break the mind even more.

I mean tbh, ive sometimes taken some of those online tests, i mean i might have been depressed for the last 12 years.

Debilitating and began in 10th grade. Mental illness runs heavily on one side of my family.

I currently suffer from depression, and its been that way since I was like 12 if not before.

I have had one major depression and several small ones, but many of those have been a general sadness, that have built up through my life, - and I am working on that now, because I want my energy back.

I have had two major depressions and several small ones, but many of those have been due to a general sadness, that have built up through my life, - and I am working on that now, because I want my energy back.

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I have bipolar depression. Before it started I was coping well with my AS. However, I've not felt that way for a long time.

I find that depression is anger turned inward.

This anger is for me often connected to people from the past that I have not stood up to/not confronted out of fear or because I could not because it would damage my employment situation.

I think the only way out is to confront the anger by turning it outward.

I've been affected by depression and dysthymia for pretty much all of my life. It has got the better of me during a number of Aspie burnouts over the years. I am lucky to have a good support network in place these days but haven't really been able to shake the mood. That's depressing in and of itself!

Wish I had a penny for the times I've been told, "cheer up!" What I could do with a big pointy stick at that point. That said, I usually say nothing, try and smile and then seethe inwardly. Other people, can't live with them but can't have at them with a pointy stick or they complain.

For about two years of my life I was depressed I have only come out of the depression fairly recently. I was originaly depressed because I was not getting the support I needed at school ( I had received my diagnoses years before this point) but then my one and only friend left town and I became very paranoid and depressed. After about a year I moved schools and made some new friends and I can honestly say I've never been happier!

I've had depressive episodes at various points, sometimes externally induced and sometimes with no apparent cause. I think I may have had one at 11, but am not sure now. I definitely had one at 14, then another at 18 that got to the point of suicidal thoughts, though no concrete plans, thankfully. I had some depression in my early 20s, but also some success in life that lessened it. Then at 25, and I hit another last year, job-induced, that I'm still trying to claw my way back out of.

Anxiety? In my teens, really only induced by people around me; bullying, and a lack of understanding/sometimes even abuse from my parents. I guess I picked up social anxiety around that time too. Later, around 25, it became chronic, and I've battled with generalised anxiety ever since, as well as still battling social anxiety.

I'm not sure there's much of a story to tell, but if you, OP, find my post of use then feel free to use it in your project.

Two of your options, "I have suffered debilitating depression" and "I am depressed right now" could be simultaneously true...

They could but, to me, debilitating means currently curled up in a ball, which I admit I've spent a lot of time in recently. If you are curled up in a ball you are not going to to fit to answer the question.

Right now, I'm depressed enough to hate myself and be at about a 6 on the thinking-about-suicide scale. Much of the last week was another matter. I'm depressed now, to the point where getting up and making dinner isn't likely to happen. That's not debilitating, just unpleasant in inhibiting of full functioning. Debilitating has been intermittent for months, if not years.

Happened right around when I left home, graduated highschool. I didn't and still don't understand why I felt it or why I fall into it. It seems largely uncontrollable.
I'd like to think my celiac disease and eating gluten while I didn't know I had it, caused it. I still think this is a perfectly valid hypothesis even though I'm not exactly undepressed right now. But I am happier than I have been. I'm not curled up in a ball in bed with my eyes burning because I've cried too much. I don't want to commit suicide, whereas I've actually tried before.

Wow. Kind of sad seeing the poll results and how many of us have classified our depression as "debilitating", but it's also a huge relief to know I'm far from the only one.

I have suffered on and off from varying levels of depression for over 10 years now (I'm currently 25), and I can definitely say that there's a huge correlation between my depression and my Aspergers. I liken it to a sort of domino effect where the difficulties in connecting to others and understanding social norms cause people to misunderstand you and cast you off to the side, which then causes loneliness, which then causes you to feel like you will never successfully integrate yourself into society and in the end you just say "f*** it". At least that's in my experience.

I have been on more medications than I can count since my diagnosis, which probably has a lot to do with the fact that I've also been diagnosed as bipolar II (most of my episodes have been depressive, though), and ADD- I'm sure big pharma must really love folks like me, haha. Right now I'm on a cocktail of Wellbutrin and Lamictal and so far that seems to be working for me, although it's not perfect.

I think I've gotten so used to depression that I believe it's just a natural part of me and not some life-nullifying agent. The medication I'm on doesn't seem to help as I can't get back into writing fiction or music. Part of me is seriously considering weed. From what I've read a few strains can help with my AvPD, anxiety, depression and blood pressure. Weed as a miracle cure all? The cannabis stores will be open for business in Washington in 6 months. Maybe I'll give it a looksee, anything to put this depression behind me.

You really don't know what depression is like unless you've actually had it. It's not the same as just being sad. I think those Dementors in Harry Potter pretty much describe what it's like it perfectly. It's like all your good thoughts and memories have been sucked out of your brain and all you have are the bad ones and you'll never be happy again. I was like, what's the point of having dreams or wanting good things if they're never going to come true? What was the point of me drawing cartoons when I'll never really be a successful cartoonist? I used to think the fact they made me happy was all that really mattered, but they didn't give me the profound joy they once did, and what was the point of my having creative talents at all? When I die no else one will know about them, I won't have any friends or relatives who will show them to the world, and it'll be like I never lived.

I've had really bad anxiety, which tends to go hand-in-hand with depression. I used to get really bad anxiety attacks. only I didn't always know that's what they were. One minute I'd be fine and then suddenly it would feel like the ground beneath my feet was moving on my own and I couldn't get enough air into my lungs even though they felt ready to explode. I'd even wake up at night feeling like I was having a heart attack.

I totally do not believe pot, legal or otherwise, will "cure" it. It's become almost like back when people thought mercury could cure everything.