OJani wrote:
Iced wrote:
I 'solved' my dilemma by 'compromising' on different questions.
I do the same every time I take such tests. Otherwise the results would be skewed from the start.
Sorry about the late response; been pre-occupied and forgetful of late.
And yes, the same is true for me. Without 'compromising' on the tests that have these black and white types of answers, the tests would all be skewed in one direction or another. A better response to some of the questions would be something like 'mostly' or 'seldom' as opposed to 'always' and 'never'.
OJani wrote:
Iced wrote:
I got assessed half a year ago and my therapist who was also my assessor dXed me with SCD as opposed to the spectrum saying that he felt like I had managed to effectively cope with the other characteristics to the point it wasn't as much a factor anymore.
I don't think it is fair to dx a person with SCD when they also have sensory issues and circumscribed interests to such a high degree. Do you think that you'll get the support you need with this dx?
The short answer is, probably not.
The long answer is - and this is partially related to my therapist/assessor dXing me as he had - I'm in my early 30s now so the dX is coming in pretty late to the game and in some ways, I can't even begin to fathom what support I could ever get and how it would/could help me because I never even knew there was 'support' in the first place.
Not sure how much sense that made but basically, what would a more appropriate dX get me at this time period of my life?
It isn't that I am skeptical that any kind of 'support' would happen (okay, a little part of me is), but rather, I have spent all of my life up until now non-diagnosed and managed to push through... with great difficulty.
Before now, I was the 'weird', 'odd', 'strange', 'creative', 'gifted', 'socially stupid', and 'naive' person who muddled through a too-loud, too-bright, too-everything world that I felt like an utter stranger in and hated pretty much every moment of it because everything - especially navigating social situations and that was pretty much every. single. day - required such incredible amounts of effort on my part that I was permanently exhausted and eventually developed depression and became suicidal.
At some point, I'm not sure what happened. A part of me 'died' and I stopped caring about a lot of things and that included how other people treated me or viewed me as. Whether this is good or bad, I have no idea.
Socializing - friends and relationships - became less of a priority in the interest of managing my stress levels related to my struggles with social situations. I became more proactive in standing up for myself and my 'quirks' and that included indulging in my circumscribed interests as an adult so long as it wasn't hurting anyone (or my wallet).
As long as I could hold a job and make ends meet and have a sanctuary of my own where I could unwind in, I could be content. Luckily, I have a family that - though they do not necessarily support me in being on the spectrum - support me and my 'quirkiness' and allow me to live with them without any grief.
My sensory issues still grate on me greatly; I have learned to avoid the worst and have somehow learned to grit my teeth and forge onwards if avoiding isn't possible and try to make the best of it. It doesn't mean that sensory overload won't trigger a meltdown because it still happens... it just means that it's become a matter of fact. It happens and I 'get over it'.
I guess that's why the therapist dXed me the way he did stating that to him, though I have sensory issues and circumscribed interests to a high degree in addition to the issues with socialization, it seemed like I was managing to work around and cope in whatever ways that I had.
On the outside and in the way that I publicly project myself and the way he had perceived me to be, I'm generally 'together' with a 'hint of that quirkiness'. It doesn't mean that I don't struggle because I definitely do and it doesn't mean that HE won't support me as someone on the spectrum, it means -
Actually, I'm not sure what it means, but in thinking about your question, maybe THAT is what a SCD dX means as opposed to a PDD-NOS-type dX. Not his support or my family's support but other support?
All that said (sorry that was so long), your question gave me food for thought and yes, next time I see him, I will address this same question with him.
Thank you for asking it.