derbyrolla wrote:
I have scored INFJ very consistently on the MBTI for the last several years, ever since I had to take it in a personality theory class as an undergraduate. Coincidentally, I also score very high on the AQ (autism spectrum quotient), and very low on the EQ (empathy quotient) and FQ (friendship quotient). I will be 30 in December and am undiagnosed, although I was misdiagnosed as bipolar at the age of 13 due to my bouts of depression and frequent, often violent, meltdowns. I still get those today, when overwhelmed. Meltdowns, I mean, occasionally involving destruction of property and self-harm. I am always humiliated afterward, but just find it extremely difficult to control what I do in the moment. This almost always stems from being confronted about something, and being unable to effectively answer questions posed to me regarding my thoughts, feelings, or actions pertaining to some situation.
So, regarding the INFJ type, or at least in my experience, I find it odd that I score so low on the empathy scale, considering that I do have feelings; I just am often unable to describe them when they are mixed. So, I do tend to actually feel things very intensely, and another feature involving intuition is that I can sense the mood of those around me, and it affects me deeply when this mood is negative. I have a problem with discrimination of other peoples' emotions, so when those emotions are negative, I feel like I am being personally assaulted. Especially if that feeling is anger, even when not directed at me, I often have to get out of the room because I become extremely nervous, like the angry person will lash out at me at any moment. This drives my boyfriend nuts, because he is always explaining "I'm not angry at you, I'm angry at the situation."
However, feeling really has nothing to do with empathy, as empathy refers to the ability to feel like another. This I simply cannot do. Unless I see someone or an animal being harmed physically in a grotesque way, then I feel and have to look away. Other than that, though, I definitely have to remind myself of things like to reciprocate when someone asks me, "How are you?" to ask it back afterward, and I will mimic what other people say to people in somber situations, like loss of a loved one. Those are the toughest for me because my only programmed responses are "I'm so sorry for your loss" and "my condolences to your family." Anything beyond that and I am at a complete loss for words and just feel anxious and uncomfortable, hoping the topic will suddenly shift to something more lighthearted.
It's really interesting - given that INFJs make up a mere 1% of the population - that there are so many of us on here. I know not everyone has been diagnosed and there are also NTs on here but I would imagine there is a strong correlation. Which points to the fact that the feeling and intuitive element can be really strong in people on the spectrum.
However derbyrolla, I think you make a really good point when you identify the difference between *feeling* and *empathy* - I think in scientific terms these are differentiated by "emotional empathy" and "compassionate empathy". The first is the kind where you actually feel what someone else is feeling (as opposed to "cognitive empathy" when you can work out what someone 'might' feel). The latter is knowing what to do about someone else's feelings.
I am assuming that many of us may have the quality of emotional empathy but lack compasionate empathy until we have spent years observing the *correct procedure* in response to various situations!! Well, at least it's true of me!