Meltdown in Therapy - Why is this happening?

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During my therapy session last Thursday, I had a meltdown of sorts, which I was made to talk about in this morning's session. It was a change in my routine/schedule/plan that pushed me to the point of not being able to cope with it "normally." My therapist got me 15 minutes late which made it to where my session was only 30 minutes instead of 45 minutes, which is a big deal to me because it had literally never happened that way before. If ever she was late getting me, that just meant my session would end later than planned because the duration would remain the same as planned. I know that it does not make sense to her why I get more upset over the change in the length of the session than I do over the change of what time it starts and stops. Maybe it doesn't make sense, but it doesn't have to in order to upset me.

When I get overloaded and unable to cope with things I tend to cover my ears, close my eyes, and get stuck repeating the same phrases over and over without being able to easily stop. According to her, I was also rocking back and forth, though I don't remember that and don't think I do it that much (I've only been called out on it by friends a few times). I don't like the thought of me actually doing it, especially without being aware of it. I don't understand why I lose the ability to communicate what is happening apart from using the same few phrases over and over.

I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY I GET STUCK LIKE THIS AND CAN'T REGAIN CONTROL!!

Does this happen to anyone else? Do you know why?

Difficulty coping with change and transitions is very much part of ASD and shouldn't really be a question you ask yourself why, as that won't help. Look for what helps you make the transitions instead. Ask her to help with this if you can.