Feeling so separate from the world and in limbo

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Have just been referred for adult autism assessment and wondered if these feelings were common in ASD

Just feel so separate from the world like there's a barrier between the world and me. It's isolating and lonely but I can't break through it.

Feels like I'm just in limbo. I was born and then I'm in limbo until I die. I'm not experiencing life. Wondered if anyone can relate to any of that.

Thanks

I can relate. My signature is how I feel. When you sleepwalk, you can't see what's coming and you end up falling into a hole. Repeatedly.

Hmm. Yeah, I can relate to this more than I would care to. The way I describe it is that I feel like an observer in this universe. Like someone who's just here to watch; never to take part, never to interfere, just to watch.

I can definitely relate.

I can relate.

Yup, and this is a good thing. Noam Chomsky talks about this alienation or atomization here:

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h2QPBmbnpLU[/youtube]

I think it's a sign you've got highly developed senses. The perversion of the world insults your fine sensitivity. It's kind of like if you have been listening to symphonic orchestras all your life and then somebody plays you the crudest simplest most degenerate music out there, and you're in a company where everybody is so desensitized that they all consider the garbage to be the finest experience they've had. Just like in 1984 where the food is tasteless and everybody drinks gin all the time.

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Mgn-fXZRiM[/youtube]

I say be proud of rejection, alienation, madness, cynicism, paranoia and all the rest. These are all signs you've still got some life in you, as opposed to the mindless drones that make up the majority of humanity, who are nothing but empty shells.

I can relate to that a bit. I especially feel like that when it comes to social situations. I often feel like I'm some sort of observer when I socialise with people. It's like I'm watching people through a window or something. Like there's a barrier between us and that we're never really "on the same page".

I always explained it like I'm caught between two different dimensions. I'm part of both but at times I'm in one more then the other. On the outside looking in.

I think, I breathe but I do not live. Someone got it right when they said "It's like I'm sleepwalking"

It a real condition

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissociation_(psychology)

Yes, I relate too. It's difficult to explain that feeling to people who are more sociable. I remember telling my friend that I feel like I have trouble connecting to others and she just could not understand what I was talking about.

Forgot there was an outside...also from my house.

It feels like I'm out of sync.

Yes. In my case, I attribute it to not being/feeling integrated in the environment I live in. If I had functioning social connections and a purpose, this sense of separation would probably be less pronounced or even irrelevant.
Involuntary isolation has all sorts of devastating effects on the mind, especially combined with a loss of direction.

I am mostly in my own world. Except when I'm on forums (good) or if I'm being made to socialise (bad).

It feels like I'm behind a fence and every time I think I'm at the top of it, it just keeps getting higher and higher.

Oh well!