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25 Sep 2014, 12:30 pm

I know what family love feels like from my parents how they raised me, but outside the family for like a relationship I have no idea. No interest in finding out at the time either.



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25 Sep 2014, 2:14 pm

I also experience the same thing whenever people are trying to be affectionate towards me I don't even understand it and I don't react mostly because I always have no idea how to react to those kind of stuff but I can't say I've never exprienced 'love' I at least exprienced it as a child because I remember loving my cousin so much and crying on his death even though it took me time to realize the death but I cried a little after realizing and still got sad about that death for the rest of my life,, this is the deepest emotion I've ever had in my opinion.



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25 Sep 2014, 5:45 pm

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Just out of interest, do your dad and stepmother show love for you?


To be honest, I feel like they say it a lot more than they show it; that was especially true when I was living there. They said it sometimes, but I always felt like they were just annoyed by me and didn't think I tried very hard at anything. And they didn't listen to me when I tried to explain things to them.

I don't feel comfortable talking to them even about normal things, it feels awkward; let alone personal things. I haven't told them much about my recent Asperger's diagnosis because I don't feel like they ever try to listen or understand, and I know from trying to bring it up before that they will see it as an excuse even if I tell them it's not. My step mom was outright mean sometimes and I wasn't necessarily hurt by it as much as I was offended and angry. They always compare me to the other kids and make me feel like I'm stupid in front of them. I could go on and on about it, but basically I just don't feel comfortable talking to them about anything really, and even just when I'm around them I feel like I need to pretend, and not be myself so they will accept me.

Sorry. I did delete the post because I realised my question was 1)none of my business 2)likely to cause you pain. I didn't delete it quickly enough. I apologise for my insensitivity.


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25 Sep 2014, 7:25 pm

love has different guises, not all of them immediately warm and fuzzy. the mother who stays up all night comforting her ailing child, expresses love which, if the child could feel it, would feel akin to the palpable warmth I felt when I took my late mother's ashes to the cemetery, it just descended upon me suddenly and wrapped all around me, and was very comforting.



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25 Sep 2014, 7:53 pm

Charloz wrote:
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When you really dont want someone to die


And when losing them as a presence in your life, to you, is a fate worse then dying. :oops:

I like this.



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27 Sep 2014, 1:05 am

I know I love my cat because when I think that one day she will get old and die and that I will have to live without her it makes my chest tight and hurt and the same thing happens when I think about losing my mom and that's how I know I love them. Other than that...I've never romantically loved someone. I've had crushes like 'oh wow, that man is very nice looking and I would love to hug him and maybe be special to him' but past that...nothing



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27 Sep 2014, 1:26 am

Love is having among your top priorities the well-being and happiness of another living creature. It means that their happiness brings you satisfaction and that you act in ways that benefit them, and that even when you don't feel emotionally connected, you still persist in making decisions with their interests in mind.

I've thought about it some, and I think that by this definition it is actually possible to love people who never do anything but annoy you--or people you have never even met.

There are other words that can be used to describe related things--words like "passion", the dizzy-headed emotional and erotic connection to a new partner; "fondness", the warm feeling that one has for someone they feel comfortable with and consider a friend; or "duty" (to family, friends, or community), the decision work to benefit someone else even when doing so brings you no satisfaction. There's the parent-child bond that includes a lot of protectiveness and a good deal of identifying the child as very nearly part of oneself, which is heavily rooted in the instinct to care for one's young.

But love, in general, is more than an emotion--if it were only an emotion, then all you'd have to do to stop loving someone is to get upset with them. Love is more of a long-term behavioral pattern, a conscious or subconscious decision, or a habit--perhaps even a way of life.


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27 Sep 2014, 1:31 am

Robin William, in Bicentennial Man:

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That you can lose yourself. Everything. All boundaries. All time. That two bodies can become so mixed up, that you don't know who's who or what's what. And just when the sweet confusion is so intense you think you're gonna die... you kind of do. Leaving you alone in your separate body, but the one you love is still there. That's a miracle. You can go to heaven and come back alive. You can go back anytime you want with the one you love.


I've experienced this, but it's not day-to-day love, which can be far more elusive, yet far more available, if you're open to it.

And no.. love does not equal sex, but any intimacy with someone you love is often 10x more enjoyable.


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27 Sep 2014, 1:32 am

For me it's a warm and fuzzy feeling in the pit of my stomach.


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27 Sep 2014, 2:14 am

Raleigh wrote:
Sorry. I did delete the post because I realised my question was 1)none of my business 2)likely to cause you pain. I didn't delete it quickly enough. I apologise for my insensitivity.


That's ok, I was pretty sure you didn't mean anything bad by it. Plus I think I should write about these things sometimes anyway, whether in a journal or wherever. It sometimes helps me figure things out or gain a better understanding of a problem.


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27 Sep 2014, 2:48 am

After reading everyone's posts on this subject. I wonder if autistic people can comprehend what love really is. I had some deep thoughts about this myself and I even question myself if I know that love really is. That's a tough one to answer.



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27 Sep 2014, 8:07 am

GibbieGal wrote:
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Connectivity, like most things, exists on a spectrum. There are some people who thrive at being connected to as many people as they can (hence why social media is so popular) and plenty of others (like, it would sound, yourself) who don't experience connection in the same way.

As for love, that's tricky. Every now and then, particularly if my wife is either late from work or if she is unusually quiet, I have these intense feelings of dread and a wave of relief when she comes home or I muster up the courage to ask her if she's upset with me (rarely is this the case, but sometimes I say stupid stuff :roll:). For me, this balance is how I experience love. It's a little scary, but pleasant and warm when it's going right. That's the best way I can describe it. Or at least my experience with it.


I feel as though you have described this very well and I appreciate your sharing it! 8) This is a very good description of how I might typically experience love in a relationship (no significant other, but I do have some friends).

Yes, this is a very good description! Intense feelings of dread and a wave of relief also apply to children.



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28 Sep 2014, 2:26 am

You'll know it when you feel it. It's mostly a chemical blend released by your brain that usually last 3 or 4 years. :) I didn't feel it until I was 30 and had my second baby. I was so in love with him I loved everyone else, too and the world seemed a better place.

Sometimes love can cause upset stomach, insomnia or irrational behaviors. It's those chemicals at work. :)


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