Overzealous to please as overcompensating mechanism for ASD?

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I was a hard core pleaser, as I thought, It could make up for who I am.
Up untill my mid thirties I allways ended up as some elderly persons "pet", because I was so nice. It didn´t earn me much respect, though.
I was so nice, that I stayed with bad teachers, because I was afraid of hurting their feelings, by leaving.
I realize now, that it all had to do with confusion about how to "fit in" and make myself acceptable.

i try to be very polite and agreeable all the time. i never know how to act so i found that smiling, nodding yes, and just generally agreeing with people helps me not get in trouble. sometimes i backfires because i can't process what they're saying fast enough, but i still automatically say yes when they ask me something. everyone treats me like a little kid and to be honest i prefer that over getting in trouble or being thought of as weird.

i'm probably exploited, i dont' know. i dont really pay attention. lots of people are nice back. i don't care if people take advantage of me. also, i just like being nice to people. i know what it feels like to feel really bad all the time so i dont want other to feel like that.

when i was younger i'd always get picked on/in trouble/ignored/etc for being myself so now my main goal is to be seen as 'normal' and i try to achieve that by being all around agreeable (too much so probably) and being nice and helpful. i dont care if it doesnt work most of the time, if there's a chance it works even once i'll take it.