Jimihathaway wrote:
This make me so happy to see that I am not alone in this. I know everyone is different but sometimes it's nice to hear that people have the same problems and concerns as I do. I don't know what level of Aspie I am as I am 52 and all the doctors I have been to think I am "well adjusted" and that testing is "to expensive" so I should just forget about it. They think I am well adjusted because I have spent a lifetime faking "ok" and lieing about my real feelings. Sorry tangent blah blah blah thanks again everyone at wrong planet
Jim- I'm 46, diagnosed at age 35 after 3 episodes of major depression, numerous panic attacks, PTSD, and 20+ years of "faking normal."
I was addicted to overwork and spread so thin that I didn't know if I was coming or going. I was successful professionally, (because I was
so focused and
so obsessed,) but my health had gotten to the point where my blood pressure was uncontrollable, I was having bleeds into the scleras of both eyes, (which is a precursor to stroke) and I could barely function due to PTSD.
It took a major life change - a career shift, a return to reliance upon God, counseling, and, yes, medication, to help get me to a better place.
You are right in wanting to understand how your wiring works and to be better equipped to work with the parameters you've been given regardless of your age. It's an amazing revelation to be in my 40s and getting to a place where I'm comfortable in my own skin, pretty much for the first time in my life. Get the answers you're looking for. It's worth it for your mental and spiritual health.
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