Most of my meltdowns have been of relatively equal intensity, but vary based on the stimuli. The ones I hate most are the ones that are triggered by something unexpectedly disappointing happening, or something occurring to prevent me from doing something I was looking forward to. That bitter, angry feeling can last for hours or days after the initial meltdown has subsided. The last time it happened was on Tuesday, December 29th, 2014. I was expecting to go in for therapy like I do every Tuesday, but had forgotten that due to Christmas break, my therapist had moved my usual 6 PM appointment to 2 PM. She called and asked where I was, and asked if we could reschedule for the following week. I said fine, but flipped out as soon as I hung up, banging my head against my bedframe, hitting, biting, pulling my hair, by the time it was over, I had bruises on both legs and a headache that would last until the next day. Even after she called back and said she could fit me in on Wednesday instead, I still had that frantic, agitated feeling, like I'd barely missed being run over by a train or something.
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"Survival is insufficient" - Seven of Nine
Diagnosed with ASD level 1 on the 10th of April, 2014
Rediagnosed with ASD level 2 on the 4th of May, 2019
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