omid wrote:
Tried to get myself diagnosed with AS at a supposedly very good place AGAIN.
buttomline:
- I'm supposed to have "undifferentiated Schizophrenia" (because my record says so)
- I do not have Asperger's, based on the doc's impression of my talking and behavior and whatever.
- Asperger's specific tests can't be done because I'm on antipsychotics, These could affect the results of cognitive and whatever tests and render test results useless.
- The Antipsychotics can't be withdrawn to do the testes because I have undifferentieted Schizophrenia.
Ok. I totally don't know what to do anymore. I read books on Schizophrenia in the past. Biographies. Hard to read medical books. anything. They don't make any sense in my case. But whenever I watch interviews about AS I want to cry because they are telling my life story. I totally can't read any book on AS because it's all my problems and life story and affect me very negatively because I relate to them too much.
Maybe I'm schizophrenic and my god damn delusion is THAT I BELIEVE I HAVE ASPERGER'S? that's the ONLY scenario that would make sense! Or I have Asperger's and these docs are full of s**t.
The thing is, everyone is saying that I have UNDIFFERENTIATED Schizophrenia. and frankly I'm wondering whether undiff. Schiz. has ANYTHING to do with real Schiz. because I have never had a delusion or hallucination or thinking disorder unless I was on an almost overdose of antidepressants (just thinking disorder in this case).
So WTF is this undiff. Schiz.?
Cheerz
Omid
Interesting because for years I was told I have anxiety/depression and doctor only said so because that's what my records say! I was put on medication after medication which only seemed to make my symptoms worse. I finally began seeing a therapist and psychiatrist in the same clinic where all the doctors work closely together and finally after years of living in the dark and misdiagnosed or being told I was "normal" they are actually considered me as actually having ADHD/Aspergers! I stopped my antidepressants which made my cognitive function worse. I would say it actually gave me a thought disorder too. I was given a prescription for adderall which has made my anxiety and brain fog go away for the first time ever!! !! !
Here is what I would do. Listen to your gut feelings. Do your research and find a way to stop your meds. Don't even listen to the horse**** people say about asking your doctor how to stop because the doctor will try to either A) talk you out of it or B) you will still suffer terrible withdraw symptoms if any. (Personal experience) Hell if you are on medication that you shouldn't be on they will make you present with clinical symptoms of many disorders. Anti depressant actually made me depressed and gave me increased anxiety, so doctor kept me on them because of these symptoms. Also anti-psychotics can make you appear as if you have schizophrenia because they cause many symptoms that appear like the disorder itself. (I was on a few of these too)
Try finding a therapist if you can and don't tell them what you have been diagnosed with and instead just tell them what you have been struggling with. Give them a history of your symptoms and any information you think may be important. I did this and my therapist, along with my psychiatrist in the same clinic are helping me determine if I do have ADHD/Aspergers.
It has been my struggle that doctors tend to look at your history and stay with the diagnosis, despite treatments not working. This is always a red flag that the diagnosis may be wrong!! !! Starting fresh is usually the only way to find answers.
I hope you find the help you need,
-Niko
19 May 2015, 4:13 pm
