what kind of unpredictability scares you the most?

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To me, the scariest unpredictability is the unpredictability of my own body. Does anyone else relate to this? Hypochondria or things happening to my body that I cannot control (reason why I avoid drinking a lot, experimenting with drugs, eating certain foods that I think might make me ill, go to the toilet a lot before travelling or leaving the house etc.)

I'm not sure how body-centred autistic people are, apparently many autistics are not all that conscious about their bodies. I would be like that too as a kid but occasionally something would jump out at me (relating to the state of my body, feeling sick, pain etc.) and I would fixate and obsess over it and become very anxious. I used to have obsessive emetophobia as a kid. I don't think it is OCD as such, although it might be...

The unpredictability that bothers me the most is people in general. I usually have things planned to a tee, including factoring in human caused variables, but I'll be darned if people don't keep on coming up with something bizarre. I don't care if it's driving down the road, shopping, working, whatever; these individuals keep on messing with my game plan.

Basically, a negative response from somebody over something or a small debate. Sometimes people can get easily angry or short tempered for no legitimate reason, and thats what I hate seeing the most. I am not particularly "scared" of it as the thread title say, but it is quite annoying at times when you want to say something and make the person understand what you're saying, and instead of understanding that, they get it wrong all along no matter how much you try to convince them otherwise. And it is very unpredictable to tell when somebody may be like that, because you dont read other people's minds, or what they're about to do/say about something. If I had to say how to avoid that, I'd say dont take risks in life where you have a feeling things may go bad, or a person reacting to it so negatively that you'll regret making that move in the first place. I had that happen to me a lot, and I'm glad I'm learning it.

Not sure if it counts as unpredictability or not but unexpected costs freak me out. I have practically zero income at the moment and sometimes it seems as if just being alive costs me a fortune. I'm very wary of things where there could be hidden costs and tend to stay away because of the possibility. Also unexpected delays when I'm on a schedule, have an appointment, etc. Traffic jams, people in the way, busses stopping at every single stop 20 meters apart, anything that slows me down and makes me late. I hate being late. Because of that, I often arrive for things massively early so if there are delays, I won't have to care.

People being fake-nice and/or having secret resentments about things, until they suddenly explode.

I worry about getting cancer. Ever since I read something about 1 in 3 people will get some form of cancer in their lives, in has frightened me to the point where any ailment I notice I start worrying that it's cancer.

Also I worry about terrorists. They can bomb at any place at any time. Every few months now a load of people get bombed out of the blue, it's all up on the news, and it results in more unfortunate people who have lost their families.

And I worry about house fires too. Every week now I hear on the news that another building somewhere has burnt down. Some fires are so powerful that the whole building has completely demolished, even after firefighters have been tackling it.

Scary stuff.

People burgling our house or a fire or some kind of natural disaster. You can't predict when something like that happens and it scares me. If my house was on fire what would I even stop to take out? I'm scared of that. Also of someone tracking me down and stealing all my login details and tracing them back to me and they're psychopaths who want to kill me or something.

My top five list...

Other drivers
Aging vehicles
Employment (I've been with the same company over fourteen years, but I still get uneasy if someone's let go.)
Redevelopment in my neighbourhood ("out with the old", could be a bad thing, my house goes back to 1888.)
The stability of Social Security (I'm 9 years away.)

The unpredictability that comes with only interacting with someone through a machine. It's incredibly hard to read people.

I call it "psychic pinball".

Now don't jump to conclusions with the word "psychic", it's just that I have found that I seem to be reacting to the emotional states of others around me.

I've recently been through some rough issues and lately my sensitivities have skyrocketed.
Looking back on my life I have noticed patterns of how I am effected by others around me and I don't quite realize it most of the time. Recently I have tried experiments to see how I react to different groups.

It's my suspicion that autism is with the electromagnetic properties of a neural network.
Google has recently done some experiments with simulated neural networks, simulating a visual cortex, and they claim to have made it "autistic".

http://www.extremetech.com/extreme/210673-did-these-researchers-just-create-an-autistic-computer-program

It's a very interesting article.

They hypothesize that autism is a neural regulation problem, allowing individual neurons to fire out of control.
Normally, neighboring neurons will use EM properties to regulate each other.

We may actually be "transmitting" emotional states to each other.

I'm curious to see where Google's research goes.

But yeah, it's the general unpredictability of people that messes me up.
The problem is that we are TOO emphatic, so much so that we can't make any sense out of it, especially in a crowd.

And to the OP, yeah, the body stuff is ALWAYS messing with me, especially as I'm entering middle age, my back is all I can think about. And my diet is very restricted, if I stray and eat different stuff, I regret it! I am pretty much aware of everything going on in my body. I can't even get drunk, I just feel sick, skip straight to hangover. Attempted psychedelics, and I can tell ya, BAD idea for an autistic. And I can almost tell you to the milli-liter(litre) how much liquid is in my bladder. I go a million times a day. I can barely even come into physical contact with other people. I just shake hands, I rarely hug. And a sex life? LOL.

Thing is, I grew up in a time when nobody even really knew what autism was. I had to do all my own research like so many of us. Over the years I have developed some bad habits in managing something I didn't understand well.

Thankfully now, more of us are figuring this autism mystery out ourselves, modern science only seems to be looking for a money making market selling pills & treatments.

It's up to us to figure out who & what we are.

1) Winter weather (I got into an accident going to work in 10 inches of snow - with a Jeep 4x4. I just don't know how to drive the thing properly and I ended up in a snow bank with someone hitting me in the behind.) I really hate ice.
2) What patients I'm going to encounter at work (in the form of their sicknesses) and if I have enough knowledge and critical thinking skills to give them the best care so they don't croak.

I used to be worried that ppl would suddenly turn on me and try to kill me but I'm over that now.
Nowadays I'm not afraid of many things because I can handle almost anything and I find solutions to all problems.
I am slightly afraid of losing my freedom and ability to alter my own life and surroundings. Then again I could probably cope with that as long as my mind is still functional.

the unpredictability of death. knowing you or a loved one could be alive one second and dead the next. ive stressed about death since i was a tiny girl.

the unpredictability of people getting invited to something you already have planned. this happens to me all the time and i hate it. usually my bf and i will have something planned that im looking forward to then suddenly he tells me the day before or the day of that one of his sisters or friends are now coming along and i get so upset. it doesnt always happen but when it does i dwell on it and i dont have as good of a time as i could.

Unpredictability itself, unexpected things of any sort can be unpleasant because you're unprepared to deal with them.

If I go to a new place, eve a comfy holiday cottage i am in now, I can't sleep or relax for a couple of days after getting there.
I also have to urinate lots of times before leaving, even on a small journey, or before sleep, and I also fixate on if my bladder is empty during trying to go to sleep. I don't like sleeping with anyone, or have pets in the room because I don't know what they will do.