Dunwich wrote:
I think about suicide a lot, but as a logical life-decision to make later on, like changing careers or getting married. ......
The few posters I've seen discuss it here have a similar attitude: that when there's just nothing but dead ends in life and no way to use their vast knowledge and unique insight to make any difference, they'll just quit. That's me. Suicidal thoughts are just like any of my other fixations: coming, sticking, and eventually going.
That's me, too.
I had one failed attempt when I was in my early twenties and now have better plans in place for the future. I had a death obsession for a while and am now quite comfortable with the idea and some of the practicalities. For me, I now won't commit suicide over emotional issues, but when I get old and unable to continue with my life as I want to. My choice, my responsibility to myself and, in my perspective, no different to putting an old and infirm dog to sleep out of kindness.
I am the same - I tried and failed and got sectioned for 6 months as the psychiatrist realised that it was not a call for help. When my brain goes I would like to be put down.