Anger and violent behaviour

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So, this is what happens to me:
This shutdowns happen when I'm in a room full of people or suddenly when I walk in a crowd or in general when many noises come at me simultaneously. In this cases my mind goes blank and I can't do anything at all beside going away as fast as I can from this situation.
Sometimes I get very angry and violent towards things or even towards other people.
I.e. This happens when someone shout at me: I get really angry and I just feel like punching them, and sometimes I do it.
This also occurs when I'm feeling suddenly anxious or stressed because of something minor that happened to me and someone enter in my zone and interact with me in some way.
Fortunately this doesn't happen that much.

I want to know if you get violent and what are the situations that causes this behaviour

Thanks

Ps. I'm not that good in english... I apologize for my mistakes and my writing ability

Your English is great! I get very frustrated when something isn't working right, like the computer. I guess it's when expectations aren't met that I get frustrated. I feel like smashing things, but so far I haven't. My dad had Asperger's and he would get frustrated and yell. Like if my mom forgot to do something he expected, he'd yell. This happened daily. It scared me so that I would just go in my bedroom and hide in bed. So now when I get frustrated, I try to leave the situation as soon as possible and go to bed, no matter what time of the day it is. I guess that is a pattern I have kept since childhood. So I don't smash things or yell or hurt anyone I just go to bed. It's not a healthy thing though to spend so much time in bed hiding from the world. It messes with my sleep patterns. So I guess I am just burying my anger and frustration. I should try to find a healthy way to express it, instead of just hiding in bed.

I don't really get violent but sometimes I get very anxious or angry and it's like that where my mind goes blank so I can't think very rationally. I get very angry over stupid things sometimes like if another student approaches me. I don't normally get angry until hours later. I think it's cos overwhelms me but I don't mind people talking to me to ask questions or tell me stuff about class. Idk why it's odd to me. Some kid today came over to my table and spoke to me and I was polite to him and didn't mind at all but like 3 hours later I felt so angry and that he was nosey and I wanted to go find and hit him. I didn't though, but then I got worried that my class doesn't like me and i couldn't focus on the rest of my class or calm down and had to f-off so I don't get angry at everyone around me or shutdown. So I had to leave early. I hate that I can't just handle things like others. It's confusing to me.

Thanks! I think it could be better though



I guess I should find a pattern as well to deal with this thing. My sometimes violent behaviour worries me a little.

It's okay to me to think back to conversation I had and get angry because I don't like something the other person told me or because I don't like the way I dealt the chat. Also I usually think a lot if persons I'm surronded by like me and I put a lot on effort in being more sociable.
I guess also NTs think about this, even more so people on the autism spectrum, especially if it regards persons they have a liking for.
Actually I don't have many problems dealing with people that approach me, unless they suddenly, noisily rush into me (I shutdown). Working in the music field for several years helped me a lot in this sense, since I learnt to interact with different characters.
But I get violent if someone rush into me after something that makes me anxious or angry had just happened.
E.g. Someone come close and talk to me the second after I throw my coffee or my guitar fell. This behavior is something beyond my ability of control